Untold Secrets [SakuAtsu]

Unescapable Imperilment

"There's no way I'll lie down there beside you!" Atsumu shouted as he points the space Sakusa had for him.

"Don't be wary. I'll only be talking. I won't lay a hand on you."

He raise his right hand, reaching out for Atsumu's hand and begged, "We'll just talk, please."

"W-what---" Atsumu was speechless as he saw Sakusa's face who seems like a child whose candy got stolen.

"Stop giving me those puppy-dog eyes! I'll never lie down there!"

Sakusa sighed heavily and dejectedly said, "Guess I won't get what I want for my birthday."

He was about to turn his back on Atsumu but he almost fell on his bed because he was lying too close at the edge. Luckily, Atsumu quickly stepped forward and grabbed Sakusa's arm to prevent him from falling.

"Don't fucking do that again! You were too close at the edge of the bed!" Atsumu shouted as he stares down at Sakusa but was surprised when he gave him a smug smile.

"Gotcha." He snatched him around the waist and chuckled, dragging him onto the bed with him. He placed his arm under the blonde's head as his pillow and his one arm wrapping around his waist.

"Let go of me, you dickhead!" He placed his hands on top of Sakusa's chest and was about to push him away but he remembered the wound he has so he slowly removed his hands off.

"Don't move. Let me charge for a minute." Sakusa held him close for a moment and a general silence followed.

Sakusa was silent, still with his eyes closed and his arm tightly embracing Atsumu. He was breathing quite heavily and his voice sounded so tired.

"Won't you let me go now?" Atsumu asked when he finished counting down to sixty seconds on his head.

He tried to remove Sakusa's arm around his waist but Sakusa pulled him even closer, his face almost hitting his chest.

"W-we haven't talked yet." Sakusa murmured, his voice cracked a little.

"Talk about what?" Atsumu glanced up at him and said, "If you knew I was an undercover agent you should have let me get killed by your father."

Sakusa still has his eyes closed, as if in concentration. He knows that he's the type of guy who can't express his feelings well.

People has always been misunderstanding every word that comes out of his mouth even though he tries his best not to be rude every time he speaks.

He has been practicing what he wants to say to Atsumu but now that he's with him, lying beside him, all of his effort seems like it was all wasted.

He doesn't know how to explain his self but all he ever wanted was to be accepted by Atsumu. To be accepted as a guy who have killed and hurt hundreds of people for the purpose of being a good leader of his father's clan.

"I always regretted that." Sakusa murmured that gained Atsumu's attention.

"Regretted what? For letting me live?" Atsumu annoyingly asked when he heard Sakusa's words.

"I regretted that I broke up with you." Sakusa sighed heavily before continuing cause he knows that there might be a possibility that Atsumu will misunderstood him.

"I thought that if I walked away and ended everything between the two of us, this feeling that I have for you will be gone."

His hand slid down the side of his face in a warm caress, his fingers finally cupping his chin and lifting it.

"But I got more worried and unconsciously, I waited for you to contact me but it never happened."

His hand slid up Atsumu's hair giving it a gentle stroke. "I always don't give a damn if a person comes after me because of my money, leaves after they took everything and comes back again if they needed anything. I always don't care but you..."