Helpless - A Phillipa Soo X Lin Manuel Miranda Fanfic

I wish that I was good enough - Chapter 1

Phillipa Pov

Walking along the sidewalk with my headphones in as I battle against the tide of people walking the opposite direction. 

Wow, just last week I would've walked along here with Steven. You know, before everything happened. Just last week I was in a (what i thought was) a happy and loving relationship, until i came home to find him in our bed with his side piece. 

As I walk into the Richard Rogers I am greeted by my sisters (well stage sisters but we spend so much time together it might as well be biological) who wait for me with loving arms, I haven't been in since my world fell apart, and as soon as I am taken into their embrace I crumble back into a million tears. As Renée and Jasmine slowly rock me whispering words of encouragement into my ear I regain some composure and we make our way down to our shared dressing room. 

My table is just how I left it a little over a week ago. Then I see it. the photo of Steven and I that was taken on opening night. Ouch. 

"Oh Shoot!" Renée exclaims under her breath "I knew we were supposed to do something else" 

"Pips?" Jasmine questions as she slow approaches me as I'm standing just in front of my table "Are you ok?" 

As i am brought back from my thoughts i quickly reply "Yes I'm fine, don't worry" as I sit down and swiftly put the frame face down on the table.

We begin on our hair and make up, today is a two show day. I sigh as I know it's going to be a long day. 

Just as we finish our makeup and begin on our hair there is a knock on the door and all three of us reply in unison with a "Come in" laughing at our ability to be so in synch.

As we turn to see who is at the door, Lin enters to remind us that we have 40 minutes until places. Before he leaves he adds "Pippa, can I speak to you for a sec?"

"Yes of course" I reply, getting up from my chair

I notice as I walk to the door Renée and Jasmine give each other a suggestive look - what have I missed whilst I wasn't here? 

Outside Lin beings talking  

"Pippa, how are you doing" 

"I'm great" I respond, knowing that Lin can see right through me 

"Are you really? I saw you when you came in today." yep he can see straight through me "anyway I just wanted to let you know I'm always here for you if you need something"

"Thanks Lin, I should get back so I can be ready on time." 

"Alright, see you on stage"

I walk back in to find Renée and Jazzy giggling like little children, Ok i really have missed something. 

"Um.. Have I missed something?" I question them

"No, Jazzy just showed me a video of Anthony drunk the other night walking around their apartment looking for his head" Renée responds

Hmm thats awfully convenient that Jazzy does happen to have this video and I have to say it was funny. But I still think that they are hiding something

We finish getting ready and put our costumes on just as we hear someone running down the hall shouting that it was places. 

Lets get this show on then 

A/N

Thank you so much for reading the first chapter of my Phillipa and Lin fanfic. I know that in real life that they are both happily married but I do also love this ship. Sorry for any spelling mistakes - I really cannot spell but i did my best to try to correct them all :) 

Thank you again