Helpless - A Phillipa Soo X Lin Manuel Miranda Fanfic

The Heart of the matter - Chapter 2

Lin Pov 

As we take to the stage during Helpless I begin to prepare myself for the end - don't get me wrong I love Pippa, but she's my best friend and even though we've been doing this show 8 days a week for well over a year it shouldn't be awkward but it is. 

Do I feel something for Pippa? 

On stage 

"Where are you taking me?" 

"I'm about to change your life" 

"By all means lead the way"

"Elizabeth Schuyler, it's a pleasure to meet you" 

"Schuyler?" 

"My Sister"

"Thank you for all your service"

"If it takes fighting a war for us to meet it will have been worth it" 

"I'll leave you too it" 

As i move around on the stage to the left wing i realise that there is a strange feeling. What is this feeling? No. It can't be. No. Well. Do I see something different in Pippa. No. Lin. You're married. You have a loving wife. You have a son. 

Loving wife... thats pushing it ... i haven't seen Vanessa in over a week. Come to think of it... I haven't seen her since everything happened between Pippa and Steven. No I'm going crazy. Vanessa isn't with Steven. Well it is a possibility. 

My spiralling thoughts are disrupted by Oak reminding me that my cue was coming up. I mentally prepare myself to do the rest of this scene. 

We reach the end of the scene and we lean in for the kiss and as we kiss something feels different. This doesn't feel like a stage kiss, theres passion. Does Pippa feel this too? 

In between act 1 and act 2 I look everywhere for Pippa but when I find her she is busy helping Jasmine change into Maria Reynolds, I wont bother her. 

As i walk away i hear laughter fill the room - I smile to myself, her laugh can make my world and so can her happiness. 

As we take our final bows of the last show, I walk off with a half asleep Pippa who is close to crashing - I know she's had the past week off but I still don't think she's sleeping much. As she goes to leave the theatre I offer her a lift which she gratefully accepts. 

We sit in the car in a what I find to be comfortable silence, we arrive at Pippa's apartment complex and sleepily she climes out of the car and waves goodbye as she walks to the building. 

I sit stationary in the car for a moment - in awe of the woman who just left my car wondering if she would ever feel this towards me. I'm knocked out of my daze by my phone ringing. It's Vanessa. 

"Hi Nessa" 

"Hey Lin, are you nearly home/" 

"Yes, I will be 5 minutes, is everything ok love?"

"Yes yes no worries, we just need to have a little chat when you get home" 

"Ok, see you in 5" 

I hang up the phone, worried about what she wants to talk about. Could this be why I've barely seen her? 

As I arrive home i am greeted with a mug of tea and some food - at least remembers that I'm always hungry after a show. 

"Thank you darling" I say trying to convince myself that there are no feelings for Pippa. 

"I need to tell you something" Vanessa says with urgency in her voice. Something is definitely wrong 

"Ok, don't panic. Just tell me" I respond, beginning to get suspicious

"Here it goes... I want a divorce. I'm seeing someone else and we have an apartment. While you were out today I moved out all my things and you can have Sebastian" She almost spits out in a speed I never knew she could speak at. 

"Oh." that I all I can say. I'm lost for words. A few minutes of silence go past before i manage to speak again. "If you don't mind. Um. Who is it?"

"Steven" 

I was right 

"Ok goodbye Lin" 

"Bye I guess" I reply a numbness creeping over my body 

Wow. So Pippa knew? 

A/N 

My first kind of cliff hanger. Once again sorry for any spelling mistakes I really can't spell. 

I haven't got much to say here but thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed this chapter