Helpless - A Phillipa Soo X Lin Manuel Miranda Fanfic

I know I have a heart - Chapter 3

Phillipa's Pov 

As I slowly start to wake up, I turn to my other side to see it empty. For a moment I forget everything. I forgot about walking into our flat, hearing people talking, hearing the voices coming from our room. Opening the door to see my fiancé intertwined with Vanessa - Lin's wife. I forgot about the instant pain that coursed through my veins. The betrayal of my trust of both Steven and Vanessa. 

After seeing that I vowed to never tell Lin, it wan't my place. As far as he was aware he was in a happy and loyal marriage with a beautiful son. After that I said only 2 words to Vanessa, "Tell Lin" and to Steven I simply said "We're done. Get out" 

But then after a moment it all comes back to me. All the pain and all the emotions. I lay there for, I don't know how long, it could have been minutes or it could've been hours. But eventually I drag myself out of my bed and into my bathroom where I washed my face and applied some minimal makeup, literally putting it on just to walk to the theatre, and brushed my hair into a messy bun. 

It was too early to leave just yet - I don't need to be at the theatre until 4:30 and it's currently 11:30. So i make some brunch and have an almond milk coffee. I sit with my food with the windows wide open and watched some Greys Anatomy to pass the time. Before I know it it's 3:30 and I should really get ready - I like getting there early to sign some playbills and chat with the rest of the cast. 

When I finally arrive at the Richard Rodgers I am greeted by an incredibly dishevelled Lin, as soon as he sees my he grabs my arm and pulls me into his dressing room, Groff hadn't arrived yet - typical. As soon as the door was closed he confronted me with, half in tears, the question I had been dreading. 
"Why didn't you tell me?" 

As he says this I see the hurt in his eyes, unsure of whether this hurt was caused by me or Vanessa

"I - I um," he turns in despair, I quickly add "Lin, it wasn't my place, you needed to hear it from Vanessa. You needed to know it was over" 

"Your right I suppose" 

And with that I pull him into a big bear hug, Instantly he breaks down into tears, and just as the girls did with my yesterday i whisper words of comfort into his ear. After a few minutes he calms down and we sit and talk about how he now has custody of Sebastian and how he is looking for a place that is more affordable and closer to the Rodgers. 

And just like that it's 4:45 and as usual Groff comes waltzing in singing random theatre songs, today it is popular from Wicked. With this I realise that i should probably go to my own dressing room and get ready as we only have an hour until we have to be ready. 

When I arrive I quickly take my seat and start removing my Pippa make up and replace it with my Eliza make up. I then squezze myself into the corset, with help from Renée and Jazzy of course, i then help them. As I fix my hair for act 1 Lin comes to the door and pops his head in to give us the 10 minute warning. With our final preperations we put on the rest of our costumes and head to the wings. 

I catch Lin and say "I'm always here for you, they both betrayed us. Also top tip use your emotions for say no to this and hurricane"

"Thanks Pips, You know i think this is why they call you a cinnamon roll, you always know how to find the best in crappy situations."

"You welcome, Linnamon roll" 

And with that last exchange the opening beats to Alexander Hamilton begin and with a strange flutter in my stomach I watch Lin walk on stage. 

A/N 

Ok, I know in real life Steven and Vanessa are lovely people. But this is just for the story, this is for the LIPPA 

Thank you again for reading :)