Helpless - A Phillipa Soo X Lin Manuel Miranda Fanfic

Slipping through my fingers - Chapter 10

A/N WARNING: there will be some strong language used in this chapter so just a heads up. Enjoy!

Lin's Pov 

I wake up to find that Pippa isn't beside me anymore, it's still early and this would be early, even for Pippa to be up. Knowing instantly that something isn't right I jump out of bed and go into the living room, hoping to see her curled up on the sofa but she isn't there. With increasing urgency I search the apartment for her but she is still no where to be found. 

I run back into our room to grab my phone to call her, but there is no answer. After calling her around 10 times with still no answer the panic is starting to take control of my body. I call Jasmine and Renée but they haven't seen her either, I call the rest of the cast but they haven't seen her either. I then hear a knock at my door, racing over there hoping that its Pips and that she has just forgotten her keys. But instead it's Chris, he tells me that he is going to stay here with Sebastian and that Daveed and Anthony are downstairs waiting so that we can go and look for her and how the rest of the cast have already started looking. 

I meet Daveed and Ant downstairs -they look almost as worried as I feel. We decide to start by following her route to the Rodgers - I know she always used to go there when she was stressed. But she would know that the doors would be locked now... wouldn't she?

As we approach the front of the theatre I'm disheartened at the lack of success we are having. But then. I hear Anthony shouting for us to come round to where the stage door is, and I see a figure slumped down at the bottom of the steps. My heart sinks as I recognise the coat that the figure is wearing and I know that it is Phillipa. Instantly breaking into a run I race towards her moving her across to see the dried blood on her face. She has to be ok. Right? 

As Im sat next to her holding her hand, scared to hurt her if i move her, i hear Daveed and Ant talking to the cast and calling an ambulance but I don't really register what is happening. All I know is that Pippa, the love of my life is lying unconscious next to me. As I come back to reality a little I realise I should check to see if she still has her phone, maybe it could explain why she went out at such a strange time. 

I look through her pockets and find her keys, and her phone. Remarkably her phone isn't smashed but I smile as I look at her lockscreen. A picture of us on our 'first date', well ok it wasn't really a date but it was as we were walking home just as I had asked her to be my girlfriend. I quickly change my focus back to now and unlock her phone, to find it open on instagram. It was on her profile so I assumed she was looking at the post from last night. 

I begin to scroll the comments, yeah there are some trolls but none that would make Pippa act this way. None until I find one from Steven. That bastard. My heart breaks even more if that is even possible as I look down at her. Hating myself for not being there for her as she was going through this. I see that she has lots of unread texts. I go to delete them - she didn't need to see the messages from everyone worrying about her. But just as I delete the last one from Emmy I see that she had some recent messages from Steven. I know I should ignore them, I don't want to become one of those boyfriends who snoops through their girlfriends phone but I just can't help myself. I scroll through them and I am horrified at what I see

24/9/17

Steven: Happy what would've been wedding day

Phillipa: Go away Steven I've told you I don't want anything to do with you

Steven: Ah you still love me 

Phillipa: No I don't. I was mistaken for ever loving you 

Steven: Yeah well I never loved you 

30/9/17

Steven: Guess what I did today

Phillipa: Stop messaging me Steven

Steven: Aw Pips don't get jealous of Vanessa 

5/10/17

Steven: Pips stop ignoring me 

Phillipa: Don't call me Pips

Steven: Then talk to me. I miss you 

Phillipa: Stop messaging me

Yesterday 

Steven: HOW COULD YOU GO AND DATE THAT SON OF A BITCH. HE DOESN'T DESERVE YOU. IF I CAN'T HAVE YOU THEN NO ONE CAN. TELL YOUR 'BOYFRIEND' TO WATCH HIS BACK. 

"Guys" I call out to Daveed and Anthony "I think I know what happened" 

I hand them Pippa's phone and the look through the messages. Just as they hand the phone back to me the ambulance arrives ready to take Pips to hospital. I climb in the ambulance with the paramedics and Pips, the others say to keep them updated. I guess that they just wanted to give us some privacy but all I want right now is to be with my Hamfam. 

Once we are at the hospital, I am shown to the waiting room as the doctors need to run some tests on Pips and all I can do now is just sit and wait. 

After what seems to be hours I hear a nurse call out 

"Family of Phillipa Soo?" 

I stand and walk towards her. Please let Pippa be ok .

A/N 

I told you I wouldn't keep you waiting too long. Also this is a long old chapter so thank you for reading it. Sorry for the language in this chapter, I wanted to try and keep my book as PG as possible but I felt that for the message to be accurately portrayed it needed it. 

Thank you once again for all your support :)