Only Mine | S.R. ✔️

{nine}

Dear Mikayla,

I'm so sorry. No words can explain how much I miss you. Some days I can't look at mom and dad the same.

You were only 14, you had your life ahead of you. Every Friday you would come into my room and talk about college and your future and how you wanted to be a pilot so bad. Every time I see your favorite plane I believe it's you flying because that was your dream.

You were the light of my life, the light that lit up my dark tunnel but now your gone and I can't even morn your death.

This is my apology to you. For everything that you went through. Your so strong and if you are watching over me just send me a sign. I'm only 11 and I need my sister with me.

This isn't your fault okay? We love you so much they didn't mean it I promise. They both love you so much it just had to be done for your safety.

If your out there just send me something please Mikayla. Where ever you are, I need you forever and always .

Love, Y/n

Tears ran down your face a read the note that tore your life apart as a young girl. Today was October 21 the anniversary of the accident. You wished you could've had some closure.

Ever since that day you would read this letter written to her as much as you could. It was hidden in a secret compartment under your jewelry box. Her death tore you to pieces but mom always says not to show weakness so you pushed it down, but when you were alone you lost it. Tears you cried in pain of losing her. And nothing you did could bring her back and that's what hurt you the most.

As a young girl you needed nothing more than comfort. You were losing your self again just like 10 years ago. No physical pain would ever be worse than drowning in your own sobs and not being able to ask for help.

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"y/n let me see your outfit" It was Saturday just before the party. Your mom had picked out some basic outfit you would never wear ever. It was white jeans with a light blue sweater and a pair of sandals. "Do I have to wear this?" You asked crossing your arms over your chest.

"Yes you do" she laughed pulling out her phone to take a picture, you leaned against the stair railing and smiled for the camera. She handed you a cigar for the occasion, they were nasty but you had to smoke it for the 'aesthetic' according to her. "People will be here soon get ready". You obliged and grabbed the charcuterie board bringing it to the patio.

It was set with a bunch of picnic tables in the grass area by the pool. Rose bushes lined the fence. Rather than this stupid reunion, a case calling you away would be nice but alas your not that lucky, plus you told Hotch you wanted off.

Shortly after setting up a bit more, your family started to pile in. Younger and older cousins along with aunts and uncles filed into the area.

"Hello y/n" Alice said in a fake happy voice.

Alice, the favorite niece who has long blonde hair and blue eyes with straight teeth. "Alice how lovely it is to be in your company" you forced a smile. Both of you always faked being nice to each other to cover your hatred. If you could drag her ass and drown her in the pool you would.

Her perky voice was enough you to set you off. Honestly you don't know why she is the favorite. Your a badass Agent and she works at her fathers practice. One of you actually worked for your job and it want her. "As well as you y/n! What a beautiful set up you have here it's always a pleasure to see you!"