Mood Music- scared by Jeremy Zucker
(I'm aware of the continuity issue with Sasha's age in relation to what's stated in the show, but for the sake of the book, they're the same age)
Jody's POV unless stated otherwise
I'd gotten used to it. The texting, the FaceTime calls, the late nights on the phone talking about anything we could think about. After two years, it had become second nature to me. Of course it didn't stop the heartache, the sleepless nights, the odd crying session... but I'd gotten used to it. I peered out of the window, taking note of the gloomy night sky and the occasional blink of a star, and the airplanes glowing red drifting past in the distance.
"You're still up too I see." A familiar voice spoke from behind me.
"I always am Sasha- you should know this by now." Sasha had grown to be my closest friend in Ashdene Ridge- my only true friend, really. She sat down next to me on the sofa, positioning herself so she was able to look out the window too.
"I feel like I always find you here nowadays. Staring. In your own world. Why?" I turned towards her, my face falling a little. I thought she hadn't noticed.
"I don't know what you mean." I answered unconvincingly, causing Sasha to raise an eyebrow. I turned away again, setting my gaze once more on the moon blazing outside.
"I feel like... if I stare long enough... he'll walk around that corner," I gave in, "I know that no matter how many times I wish for it to happen it won't I just... can't help but hope." She didn't say anything, simply embraced me, comforting me.
I knew it was stupid, two years had passed and the long-distance thing we had going was great. I was over it. I was.
"Come on girls," Scott called to us as he was about to set off for the evening, "I know you're adults now but rules still apply while you're under this roof. Bed please." We smiled at him and headed upstairs, nodding goodbye before entering our own rooms.
Upon collapsing onto my bed, I checked my phone while tucking myself in.
Ty- I'll call tomorrow, I promise. Sweet dreams x
It wasn't much, but it was enough.
Jody- It's okay. Same to you x
I smiled, shutting my phone off, before heading to sleep.
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I woke up as per usual to the sound of 11 residents fighting for the bathroom right outside my door. Well, 10, I knew Sasha would still be in bed since she didn't start university for another month, same as me. She'd decided to study a degree in fine art, whilst I'd opted for sports science. Luckily, there was a campus right around the corner, so we could attend while still living at the DG.
After I could hear that everyone had left for school, I emerged from my room and went into the kitchen, setting up the stove so I could cook myself- and Sasha, if she was lucky- some breakfast.
"Morning," May Li stated perkily as she entered, letting me know it was Scotts turn on the school run, "do you think I could talk to you in the office? With you too, Sasha?" I looked over to where my friend had just entered, both of us looking confused.
"Sure." I responded, turning the stove off and making my way into the confined room I was all too familiar with. We sat on the sofa, remaining perplexed, but wanting to hear what our care worker had to say.
"So. An exciting year's coming up, starting Uni, going to parties, finding boyfriends." I flinched at that last one. I already have one.
"Just get to the point, will you?" I had a feeling I knew what this was about, so I wanted her to get it over with. May Li sighed but continued.
"It's just, Scott and I have been talking, and with such a huge step in your lives plus your legal adulthood, we feel that maybe this isn't the right place for you to be living anymo-"
"So you're kicking us out?!" I snapped, standing up abruptly. I couldn't leave. Not yet. Not ever.
"Of course no-"
"But that's what you want isn't it?! Is that how it works?! The second you turn 18 your thrown out to make something of yourself?! This is ridiculous!" I slammed the door on my way out, hearing May Li and Sasha both call for me as I swung my bedroom door to a close.
I knew she was right. I knew the day would come and I knew it would be soon I just didn't want to admit it. As much as I hated the noise, the lack of privacy and the constant arguing- it was home. And leaving home felt like a step I wasn't ready to take. At that moment, there was a knock on my door.
"Jody, it's me. Please let me in, what the hell just happened?" She was talking softly, quietly- she knew something was up. I opened up the door, letting Sasha inside, before walking back over to sit on my bed. She perched on the end, examining the situation before her.
"What are you so scared of?" she asked gently, beginning to understand why I was so upset. I turned my head away from her, nostalgia coursing through me.
"I asked him that, you know. Ages ago. When he was acting all weird, mopey, thinking he had what his mum had. He told me his biggest fear was..." I hesitated, fidgeting from where I was sat, "losing me." She blinked, looking down, trying to piece things together in her head, working out my thoughts like a math's equation.
"Your answers the same, isn't it?" Bingo. "You're scared that if you move away, he'll never find you again. That he'll never walk around that corner." I remained silent. She was smirking slightly, fulfilled she'd completed the Rubik's Cube that was my life.
"You talk every day on the phone. You could just tell him your new address," she added.
"I know that!" I snapped, regretting it afterwards. She was only trying to help. "I know that. I just feel like, if he knows I'm here, he knows I'm safe. I know I'm safe." She knew it was useless trying to get anything else out of me, so she headed to the door.
"I'll tell May Li you're not ready yet but just so you know... I think you are. You're just scared to admit it to yourself."
I heard the door fall shut, signifying she had left, and I buried my face in my pillow. Today was one of those days where I needed to let all my emotions out. Sasha was ready. She had been for a while now, but I knew she wouldn't leave until I was ready too- we'd made a pact after Tyler left that we'd leave and move in together and vowed not to break it unless under life-changing circumstances. I knew I had to be ready if not for myself, then for her. But I just wasn't sure if I could be.
Not yet.
Here it is, chapter 1! Please let me know what you think and if you're excited for what's to come! There is going to be mood music in each chapter, so feel free to use it if you like, I find it really adds to the story. Also, I wrote that line where Jody slams the door and says 'this is ridiculous' ages ago and she literally did that EXACT thing in S8Ep23 Far From The Tree... I screamed. Anyway, chapter 2 out soon, for now it's time to binge TBR hehehe.
All the Love
Izzy
P.S- be prepared for a LOT of references to previous Jyler-centric episodes... I just love making them!
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