Mood Music- Don't Hurt Like It Used To (Explicit) by Grace Carter
Buckle up and prepare for the wrath of Miss Jody Jackson
"You never loved me like you said you did, you only taught me what a liar is"
"Tyler?" He was talking but his words were a blur. My eyes were fixated on his apartment, my mind completely zoned out. I didn't know what else to do but step away- I needed some air.
"Jodes please-" I felt his hand on my arm, trying to restrain me, and it all snapped.
"Don't call me that!" I couldn't hold anything back. He knew how bad I was when I was set off. This was not going to end well.
"Jody, please, let me-"
"Let you what?! Explain?! Explain how you've been living minutes away from me for nearly two years while pretending to be in St Lucia?! I'd like to see you try!" My voice was raised to its maximum, words spilling out before I had a chance to process them. I attempted walking away again, but he continued to restrain me.
"It's not like that I-"
"I don't wanna hear it, Tyler! You've lied to my face for so long! I barely even know you anymore!" I didn't try and leave this time, wanting to hear his excuse of a response.
"Can you just trust that-"
"Trust you?! You want me to trust you?! You have betrayed me worse than anyone has in my life!" I lowered my tone a small amount, wanting him to understand what I was feeling, "You know, when you 'left' all those years ago, I was devastated. No one saw me for weeks. And yet here you are, pretending everything's normal, pretending like you haven't just smashed my heart to pieces!"
"If you'd just let me expl-" Enough was enough. My blood was boiling, rage replacing any sense of forgiveness in my veins.
"You know what, you were right. When you did your talk at the forum, with Kamal. When he told you all about your dad and how he ran away from his problems and hid himself from the outside world. News flash, Tyler! You're just like him!" I was still screaming at him, our neighbors eagerly opening their doors to check out the commotion, but tears were falling now, crashing onto the cold, hard ground beneath us.
"Jody, listen..." His voice was quieter now, I'd hit him where it hurts. But he still wasn't giving up without a fight.
"No Tyler, you listen to me!" I was getting in his face now and he was letting it happen- he knew he was helpless, "You are a selfish, lying as-"
"Jody!"
"Don't 'Jody' me! Because you know what, for once, I was right. You don't care about me. You never have done, and you never will. I'm so done with this!" I attempted to leave, heading for the stairwell, but he intercepted my movements, standing in front of me.
"Stop! Just hear me out!"
"I don't want to hear you out, I don't care what you have to say!" The anger in me was slowly being replaced by sadness as I realized what was truly unfolding before me.
"You see, this is your problem, I've told you from the word 'go'! You never listen!"
"The last time I checked this is not about me! This is about you hating all of us so much that you pretend to move abroad just so you never have to see us again!"
"Is that really what you think of me?!"
"What else am I meant to think?! That I've magically ended up in St Lucia?! Is this some kind of joke to you?!"
"Of course not!"
"Then why are you acting like it?! Can you not see that you've hurt me?!"
"Of course I do!"
"Then why are you still standing here?!"
"Because I want you to understand!"
"I will never understand what goes through someone's head who chooses to lie to their girlfriends face for months on end!"
"Well maybe if you actually listened to me for once you would!"
"Don't you dare try to turn this on me!" He sighed, clearly aggravated by the situation, but I wasn't giving up.
"That's not what I'm trying to do! I'm trying to explain myself, but I can't get a word in edgeways!"
"That's because there's nothing for you to say! Can't you see that?! You've blown it!"
"Classic Jody, always has to be right!"
"Oh will you shut up! Look at what you've caused! You know, I was doing so well with my anger, I haven't flipped out like this in months. Who'd have thought you'd be the one to change that?!"
"I'm sorry I just-"
"We are way past sorry, you numbskull! You really think sorry is gonna cut it?"
"No..."
We stood in an awkward silence for a few minutes, the reality sinking in. My rage had dispersed, sorrow remaining where it once was. How could he do this to me?
"You know," my voice was calm now, letting the other side of my emotion speak, "You will never understand how much you meant to me. We grew up together for nearly 10 years of our life. You were my best friend. I would never have done something like this to you."
"I know that..."
"So then why would you ever think it was okay to do this to me? This relationship has been the hardest thing to deal with, with time zones, different countries, but I never would've ended it for any price. And this whole time... you were faking it."
"I wasn't faking us, Jody. My feelings are the same!"
"Well then that makes one of us, doesn't it? How could you ever expect me to forgive you? Things can never go back to how they were, can't you see that?"
"If you'd just let me talk..."
"I can't hear it right now. I need some time before I can even look at you."
"Please..."
"No. Not right now. I need time... I can't believe this. I thought-" -' I stopped myself, not wanting to expose to much of my emotion to the man I thought I knew. I changed my tone to a near inaudible whisper, only just low enough so he could still make out the words I was saying.
'I thought you loved me.'
I walked away, out of the building and into the abyss of the night, trying to piece together what had just happened. It couldn't be real, it must have been some kind of twisted dream, a tampered version of reality- I couldn't face it. I wiped the remains of my tears, sitting on a park bench that was a few streets away and focusing on a tree in the distance.
I was living in the same building as Tyler.
The man I thought I knew who I now had to call my ex-boyfriend.
I knew moving out of care was a risky idea, but I never could've predicted it turning out this awful.
So, the secrets out and it's fair to say Jody is not too happy about it... how do you think they'll progress from here? Will Jody ever be able to fully forgive him? Chapter 8 to come on Tuesday, see you then ;)
also hey sav I know you're reading this, just want to say thanks for the free promo in your book I really appreciate it xoxoxoxoxo if you come across any books by @forjyler don't read them or follow her on instagram her edits are awful <3
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