my one and only, emily

chapter 24

a/n

before i start this chapter i wanna publicly apologize for how shitty the last 2 chapters were, they were like a fever dream, keep in mind they were written at 4 am, but nonetheless they were garbage, and i'm so sorry

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waking up in emily's arms was the best feeling, if you had one wish it would be to feel that feeling just one more time. just one more.

but this morning you woke up to an empty bed, like you had every morning for the past week, surprising you got any sleep due to the circumstances, but you were grateful for the few hours you did get, you dragged yourself out of bed and into your bathroom, staring at your tear stained cheeks before splashing some water on your face and walking out to throw on some clothes, staring at emilys side of the closet, all of her clothes covered in her perfume. not knowing if she would ever come back to put them on ever again, god you missed her, a hole had grown in your heart where your love for emily had once lived. you put on your usual work attire a loose button up and slacks tying your hair in a messy bun and throwing on some makeup before grabbing a cup of coffee and walking to your car. getting in you saw her chapstick she always wore sitting in the cupholder, how you longed to taste it again, how you longed to watch her drive just one more time. just one more

the drive to the office felt like it was taking years but eventually you got there, parking where you usually parked, emily's favorite spot, you trudged into the building and got past security getting into the elevator and walking into the bullpen, setting your stuff at your desk and staring across to emily's desk, her stuff so neatly arranged, everything had its place and emily would have it no other way

you missed the way that she would twirl her pen in her fingers and scrunch up her face when she was trying to figure something out, and smile to herself when she figured it out.

"i miss you emily" you whispered to yourself

a familiar set of footsteps came your way, snapping you out of your thoughts you looked up to see hotch

"y/l/n could you come see me in my office, theres some things we need to discuss" he said to you, giving you a sympathetic smile

"oh- no yeah of course" you said smiling back and walking with him to his office

he closed the door behind you and motioned to the seat across from his

"have a seat y/n" he said

"thank you sir" you said sitting down, beginning to pick at your fingers

"have- uh- has the team made any progress? on um ya know" you mumbled

"they're doing their best, but so far we've yet to locate doyle and his men" he said frowning

your body tensed at the mention of that- that monster, tears began to blur your vision, hot tears rolled down your face

hotch handed you a tissue

"i miss her too, were going to find that bastard. i promise" he said reaching over and giving you a sympathetic pat on the shoulder

you gave him a thankful smile

"but how will we know if its to late" you mumbled looking at him

"we can only hope and pray" hotch said breaking the eye contact

she could be dead for all you know, no- doyle wouldn't kill her, no matter how much he hates her now, he loved her at some point.

right?

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a/n

everyone needs their fair of trauma, it builds character.

sorry this chapter was so short i have an idea for the next section. plus after the shit chapters i've given you yall need to get your adrenaline pumping, like i said last time something like this happened, it cant all just be smut.

ALSO WHAT THE FUCK thank you for 2k reads!!! thats insane i love you guys so mucha nd couldn't do this without you. y'all are amazing

love, olivia <3