𝙑𝙪𝙡𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙗𝙡𝙚 (𝙀𝙡𝙞𝙤 𝙋𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙢𝙖𝙣)

14

My time in Italy was coming to an end. Soon, I'd be leaving. And by soon, I mean five days.

In five days, I'll be leaving the person I love most in the world.

It hurt.

So much.

I'm trying to make the most of it. I want to be able to remember every detail.

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He was focusing on his music. Obviously, he was in front of the window with no shirt on.

I stride over and lean down to whisper in his ear. "Elio.." I place a kiss on his jaw.

He turns around and looks at me. I just smirk. He stands up and puts a hand to my cheek.

We kiss just like that for a little while, until he's running his tongue over my lips. I let him in, and then we do that for a minute.

Though, I'm an impatient person. I wanted him. So, I ran my hands down his body, really remembering his soft skin.

He pulls my shirt over my head, and runs his hands down my sides, staring in awe. His lips were slightly parted and he had a slight smirk. His eyes were dark and almost begging.

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We cuddle into each other, holding on so tight.

"You can't go." He whispers.

My heart breaks for the millionth time. The desperation in his voice almost put me into tears.

"It won't be long Elio. Eight months at the most." I try to reassure him, rubbing my thumb over his cheek bone.

"I can't go eight months. I can't do it."

I try to understand what he means by that, but it's all bad. "We can do long distance Elio. We'll call each other everyday." I try.

"You can do long distance. I can't. I'm sorry."

I stand up, and get dressed quickly.

This was supposed to be forever. It was supposed to be like this forever. He promised.

"Stella wait-"

"No Elio!" The tears brimmed in my eyes fall over. "We went years without seeing each other! And now just cause it gets hard you're just gonna give up? Like it was nothing?"

"It wasn't nothing Stella! And we were just friends!" He defends.

"Just friends? Elio you have always been more then just a friend to me!"

"I just don't want to get hurt, okay? I can't repeat what happened with Oliver."

"Well maybe next time you should think of other peoples feelings before being selfish and giving up!" I regret my words the second I see his eyes gloss over.

I huff and walk out. I run downstairs, but am stopped as I try to go out the door.

"Hey, whats wrong?" Mr.Perlman asks.

"Your son." I push passed him and hop on my bike, riding it to who knows where.

I had no destination.

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I find myself in a field. It was boring and probably had snakes lurking around.

But I couldn't bring myself to care.

I had just let the love of my life slip from my reach.

Part of me wanted to understand why he felt that way. He was hurting for a while. He didn't want to feel that pain again.