𝑾𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑫𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒚 𝑾𝒐𝒓𝒌𝒔 (𝑬𝑵- 𝑱𝒂𝒌𝒆𝑯𝒐𝒐𝒏) ✔

19

Sunghoon

My eyes widen as the puma looking guy stared me down.

"Sunghoon! So what made you visit me?"

He's as lovely as ever but odd thing is, I don't feel the rush inside me like before. I still feel my heart beating faster but not how it used to be anymore.

I smiled at him as I sit up.

"Oh don't mind Niki . .  he's a friend of mine by the way. Niki this is my Friend Sunghoon. Uh   .  can you leave us for a bit?"

The Niki guy left and I face him as he smiled at me

"Friend?"

I asked and his expression changed from happy to confused.

"Sunghoon, I'm dead. I'm technically now your ex boyfriend. We didn't break up but I'm dead."

My eyes widen, he's right. Have I not realized that before?

I'm so dumb, so all these time, I still believe I have a boyfriend?

I heard him giggle making me look at him.

"Sunghoon, I was your Sunshine and I will always be one but not yours to call anymore. You can have other Sunshine you know. Gosh, I can't believe all these time- -"

"I still love you "

I cut him off and he smiled instead.

"You don't Sunghoon. You loved me before. . . please "

His eyes changed, he looks at me, as if he's pleading.

"Sunghoon, don't imprison your self and your heart. I always have a place in there and so as you in mine but . . . you have to let go"

I wipe the tears from my eyes.

Why do I feel angry?

And whom am I angry?

"So it's just easy for you to throw me away while I am still holding onto you? it's not fair Sunoo"

I was crying.
It felt so unfair

"I really am mad at you actually when you tried to kill yourself. . . did you think it will save us both?"

"I'm just so devastated Sunoo. so sad"

"Are you implying Sunoo is at fault of your misery?"

I raise my head as I glared at that guy from earlier who just spoke.

"Niki please . . "

Sunoo tried to tell him something but he cut him off.

"As far as I know, Sunoo did nothing but to make you happy. Are you angry that he died because now you're suffering? Did you think that maybe the reason is because you didn't allow yourself to move on? You can't accept the fact that you make yourself suffer?"

"What do you know ?! Someone I love died in an instant and I don't know what to feel. I'm lost, tired and I felt empty!"

"That's because you basically shut everyone out! How will you feel loved again if you just stared on your wall and shut everyone who wants to guide you! I know what you feel ---"

"You don't!"

I yelled but he just give me a blank stare

"Yes I do. I lost my mom when I was 10, my dad when I was 13 and my best friend when I was 16 basically a month before I died. Now tell me I don't know what you feel. . . "