𝑾𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑫𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒚 𝑾𝒐𝒓𝒌𝒔 (𝑬𝑵- 𝑱𝒂𝒌𝒆𝑯𝒐𝒐𝒏) ✔

21

Sunghoon

I screwed up.

That's the one sentence that is playing on repeat in my mind. I know I shouldn't have just stood up and tell him directly without explaining. What now? What if he thinks I am using him? What if he thinks i didn't genuinely care for him? What if I hurt him so much?

How he looks the moment I told him about the kiss is haunting me. He looks so hurt.

It's been a week already since that incident and trust me, never did I miss a chance to try to apologize but every time I tried, he will always cut me off and the worst painful part, he cuts me off with a smile and just his palms. He didnt write anymore. He just signs. That is like telling me he didn't want to talk to me. Jay and Jungwon notices it and I know Jake told Jay already. Jay just give me a look and one day he asked to talk.

Now I'm waiting for him at the backyard.

"Hey"

I look back at him smiling at me making me feel a bit lighter.

"Jake told me what happened. Trust me Sunghoon, what you did just telling him out of the blue without some reason, he thinks you're pitying him. When he told me his side, I kinda think you're really pitying him- - - "

I cut him off as I look at him.

"Of course not. Jay you of all people know I care for Jake and that I am still stuck in the past but I am trying now to be free again. Jay you couldn't possibly think that I am using him don't you?"

He smiled at me

"I know Sunghoon, I know you really cared for him. I tried to tell him but he's still doubting you. I didn't think you're using him because I know you don't. My point is you explain yourself why you did that. And why you hallucinated. I think he will ask about Sunoo so you might need to really open up"

I look down as I let out a deep breath then I heard a bark.

"Gaeul!"

I scoop my puppy into my arms as she snuggles to me. For the past week that Jake hasn't spoken to me, my puppy has been the one to keep my mind in place that I didnt go crazy. I will always talk to her about things and she will always snuggle to me as if telling me it's ok. She will still play with Layla which is very adorable and I often see Jake playing with them. Imagine if I found Gaeul last year, have I lived more free? I think she would be of great help if I had her before. I think she's a heaven sent creature. And its as if she knew what I am going through and she will look at me as if she's communicating at me, it creeped me out at first but now, it comforts me.

"Jay, thank you for believing me. I will try to talk to him don't worry."

He smiled but before he will answer, his phone rang.

"Hey Wonnie?.  ..  Oh sorry .  . hi Mrs Yang. . . why? . . . what happened? . . . ok I'm on my way"

He looks panicked.

"What happened Jay?"

"Jungwon was sent to the hospital. His mom said he's been throwing up and fainted yesterday. . . today he fainted again so they sent him to the hospital. . .  it's been weeks since that amusement park thing . . . I gotta go. Please look out for him."

He hurriedly rushed outside and to his car.

What happened to Jungwon? He's been sick since the amusement park? Plus he's always sleepy and dizzy then fainting? God please don't tell me he is very sick.

I walk upstairs to try again to talk to Jake but I saw something outside my room that broke my heart.

The giant penguin plushie is outside my room with a note from Jake.

*I'm returning this to you. It hurts me when I see it as it reminds me of you*

Tears fell down my face as I stroke the plushie. Is this his way of cutting me off his life?

I went to his door as I knock.

"Jake? Please I know you're in there. Please. . . let me in . . .  I can explain.  . . and please don't return the penguin. . . Jake ? . . ."

I tried to call out but he's not responding making me knock more.

The door is locked.

I slid down on the door as I sat on the floor. I'm crying again but this time, is because I'm hurt again.

When I thought I am starting over again, it failed. Now I don't know where to start again.

I really thought Jake will be my hope to find love again but I screwed up.

What will I do now?

Now that I feel like I'm falling for him?

........

Jake

I don't know that hearing Sunghoon cry is this painful to me and knowing that I might be the cause makes this harder.

Why am I doing this again? I didnt even let him explain.

Am I being unreasonable? Or am I seeking attention?

Why did I give back that penguin anyway?

To say goodbye?

As I stared at Layla who also looks sad as she can't have a sleepover with Gaeul anymore, I heard a soft bark coming from the outside and this made Layla jump off the bed, went to the door and bark back.

I close my eyes as I heard them scratching the door as if they want to go to each other.

"Layla . . . don't you like me that much that you'd rather be with Gaeul?"

I whispered in my head as I look at how she run around the room, then coming to me before running back to the door.

"Gaeul that's enough. Come on . . "

I heard Sunghoon spoke as I ran to the door and held the doorknob but I stopped again.

Layla was barking louder this time and I can hear Gaeul from the other side of the door.

Slowly, I open the door and Gaeul immediately ran to Layla as they began to chase each other as if they missed each other so much.

Sunghoon look back at me as my eyes drifted to the puppy pluhsie he's holding.

"I think. . I dont deserve  this anymore Jake.  . . I want you to keep the penguin . . and ----"

I hugged him.

At that moment I felt lighter.

My heart pounds at the thought he might not hug me back. But he did and my tears already fell as I pulled him tighter, burying my face on his chest as I cried.

Why am I so emotional?

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Sorry for the short chapter. I just don't feel good but I will feel worse if I didnt update so here you go, I really hope you like it.

(Edit: Happy JakeHoon day BTW 💛 03.23. Thanks for reminding me keylaaa_hanna) 😍