collateral damage 🔞 - COMPLETE

•thirty-one•

~~~~~Jungkook

I woke up wrapped around Haerin on the couch in the office. I felt every muscle in my body, and knew I was going to be in trouble during our taping later. Trying to shift a little, I woke the girl up, holding my breath with nervousness that she would freak out and get angry again. I watched as she rubbed her face cutely, and fluttered her eyes open.

When she saw me, her eyes widened, but she just put her face back down on my chest. Relieved, I ran my hand through her hair and held her tightly with my other arm around her waist. She giggled when my fingers grazed the skin at her waist, and I did in purpose to hear it again.

"S-Stop... Aaah..."

I pecked her forehead and stopped my tickle assault. She hummed at the feeling of my lips on her head, and I couldn't contain my smile.

"I have to go again. We have a taping this morning..."

"ok..."

"It won't always be like that Hae... I'll make sure to have more time."

"don't worry about it... it's not important."

"What do you mean? Of course it is."

"our lives don't match jeongguk... you shouldn't change yours... it was your dream."

"Choi Haerin... YOU are my dream..."

She looks away from me and refuses to make eye contact after that. I won't let her go that easily, so I know whatever she says, I'm just going to prove her wrong. Our lives are what we make them, and I'll change whatever I need to, in order to have her. I sit up and keep her on my lap holding her waist.

"Hae... Don't shut me out."

"i am not good enough for you... not anymore... i'm"

"Stop it... You're the only girl I want Haerin. I don't care what the world thinks."

"really? that's easy to say jeongguk... wait until the tabloids find out about it..."

"They only tell lies, so who cares? I will be fine if you're with me."

"i don't think it's going to work... i won't stop you from seeing the kids... but we need to stop this."

She gets up from my lap, leaving me feeling cold. I can't accept this, but I don't have time to argue right now. I push my hair back in frustration and stand from the couch, feeling my muscles and joints pop. My knuckles are bruised and still bloody from the punch I gave that guy, but I don't feel pain, just satisfaction.

I walk to her and pull her to face me. When she won't meet my eyes, I lift her chin gently to not hurt her. I lean in and ghost my lips over hers while I whisper what she needs to hear.

"you can push me away... i'll just come back again, and again... i love you haerin... i always have... i'm sorry that i hurt you, but i won't do it again. that is a promise."

I land my lips on the corner of her mouth hearing her breathing pick up. I pull away and smile at her, hoping for one back. She doesn't give me what I want though, and it hurts me more than I imagined. I don't complain, since the fault lies with me. I'm not giving up, so I'll just work harder.

"Do you want me to drop you at home? I have to go to my filming."

She just shakes her head, not offering me her voice anymore.

"I'll come by later to see the kids... And their beautiful mother."

Again, just a nod of her head, and her eyes dart away. Groaning, I walk out to door before my temper makes me say something I shouldn't.