Nekoma's Manager (Bokuto x OC)

Amends

When I wake, Bokuto's nowhere to be seen. I feel something tickling my face and see a sticky-note has been stuck to my forehead. I peel it off and on it reads, "Hey hey hey, baby. I gotta go but didn't want to wake you. Get lots of rest and I'll see you tomorrow<3. -Kotaro"

I giggle at his gesture. Only he would stick a note to his girlfriend's face instead of a text.

I check the clock and it's 9:02PM. Wow, I was asleep for a while.. quickly I grab my phone and check if I missed anyone tried contacting me. A few missed calls from my mom. A text from Coach saying to rest up and one from Kenma explaining I was knocked out when they came to check on me again. Nothing from Kuroo.

The scene of him yelling at me replays in my head. Ugh. I felt like that was uncalled for but also I deserved it. If I took care of myself better and sought help instead of dealing with it on my own, this would've never happened.

A knock on the door jerks me out of my train of thought and I look up to see Kuroo. He's in black jeans and a dark blue coat.

"Hey, Y/N-san.. how are you feeling?" he says, meeker then his usual confident self.

"Oh hey, Kuroo. I'm a lot better after I slept. I've been feeling fine but the docs want to just observe me overnight," I reply.

He nods and seems like he doesn't know what else to say. I fill the silence by swinging my legs out of bed and jumping down. "Do you wanna take a walk with me? I've been in bed this whole time so it'd be nice to get a little fresh air," I say, offering him a smile.

He nods again and offers me an arm. "Y'know, just in case you faint on me again." There's the Kuroo I know and love. I laugh and take it, saying, "Why, thank you. I guess chivalry isn't dead just yet."

We walk outside to the hospital's little garden with a walkway and sit at a bench near a fountain. Again, we are both silent, occasionally looking up at the sky and then at each other and then at the ground.

"Look, Y/N.. I just wanted to apologize for blowing up at you earlier, it was really a jerk move. I don't have an excuse, not that there should be any excuse to yell at you," he says.

I shake my head. "Nah, you shouldn't feel bad. It was deserved. I need to know how to take care of myself better starting now. If I can't now then how can I when I go to college? This was a good wake up call for me."

I look at him, and smile, then look back down at my feet. "Y'know.. Kenma said told me earlier. Something about being dumb if I thought you only saw me as a friend." I laugh. "It was like he was implying you saw me as more than that. What a weird joke to say at that time. It's ridiculous right?" Continuing to laugh, I look over at him but he's not laughing with me. In fact, he looks as if he saw a ghost.

"I'm gonna smash his video games," he says under his breath but loud enough for me to hear.

"Huh?"

He pauses before turning his eyes to mine. "The reason I yelled at you was because.. I've never been that scared before. You fainting like that.. making me think there could've been something seriously wrong with you.. I was worried as f*ck. And the reason I was so worried.. is because yes you're my friend but also because I- I.. god dammit Y/N, I like you. As much as I have tried to convince myself other wise, I do. So yeah, Kenma wasn't joking when he said that."

My eyes grow wide with shock. I try to think back on all of our interactions, but I can't remember a single instance where I thought he could've ever had feelings for me because... I never saw him that way. "Oh," I say, trying to choose my words carefully. "I'm sorry I never knew or even suspected how you felt. But you're one of my best friends and I love you but-"
"But not in the way you love Bokuto, yeah I know. There's only one guy in your heart," he finishes for me.

"Right. Not in the way I love.. I love Bokuto.." I say. Ah, sh*t.

Kuroo chuckles softly beside me. "You haven't even realized it, have you? I've known you loved him long before now.. I know you more than you know yourself. I see the way you look at him, how you completely brighten when he enters the room. You should tell him that."

"wait, hold up. A second ago you were confessing to me, now you're telling me to tell Kotaro I love him? You're completely volatile."

He laughs at my insult. "I'm trying to let you go, Y/N. It's been too damn long that I've been pining after you, so let me move on."

I shove his shoulder. "What the heck, bruh. Freaking volatile." We laugh together. "You are going to find someone out there who will really cherish you and maybe even be willing to have your babies. Just lose the whole player reputation, ok? We women do not find that sh*t attractive."

"Haha. Yes, ma'am," he says. "So are you willing to have Bokuto's babies then?"

I roll my eyes. "Psh, I love him but I'm not pushing any tiny humans outta this body ever. No freaking sir."

We sit in comfortable silence for a while longer before we go back to my hospital room. It feels ridiculous because I am completely fine but hospital protocols take precedence over how I feel, I guess.

"Thanks for stopping by, Kuroo," I wave to him as he leaves.

"Mhmm anytime, PinkU-san. Don't fall off the bed while I'm gone though. I won't be here to catch you again," he winks and walks out the door.

My heart feels heavy, knowing he's hurting because of me. But it's better this way and I'm grateful we can continue on as good friends. As for how I feel for Bokuto.. Kuroo's right. I should tell him how I really feel. Why wait and if not now, when? I feel how I feel in this exact moment and I should express it. Life's too short to keep it all in.