The next day, I woke up a little late. Alright, I woke up really late. It was 3:30. I cursed and jumped out of bed. I quickly put on the first clothes I put my hands on and didn't bother to put on another bandage. That turned out to be a mistake. I ran to the train station and somehow managed to catch the train. I let out a sigh of relief. I, by some miracle, got to training on time. I made it through the whole day without an incident, but as soon as training ended, Oppa called me over. I went to him and he immediately grabbed my hand and took me somewhere more secluded.
"What's that?" he asked and pointed at my leg. I looked down to see a growing blood stain on my upper right thigh and a small blood stain on my upper left thigh.
'Shit.'
I opened my mouth to try to explain but no sound came out. I started to run away, but Oppa grabbed my wrist and held me there.
"Jagiya," he grabbed my other wrist, "what is that." It came out as more of a demand than I question and I could feel tears threatening to fall.
"I-I..." I started but couldn't finished.
"Let me see," he said. I shook my head and looked away.
"Please, Lissa," he begged. I caved and he took me to a bathroom. He knelt down and pulled down my pants to my knees. It looked like he was going to cry. He then stood up a bit and kissed me.
"You're wrong. I know Miyako loves you like a sister, you're so nice to all the other trainees, they all like you. The rest of Bangtan likes you like a little sister, and don't forget about me. I love you. I know it's a bit early for me to say that, but I do. I love you, Lissa, please stop doing this. For me," Oppa said on the verge of tears, "And you're not stupid, you're learning Korean faster than all the other trainees I teach, and you are already using it in daily life. That's amazing. And you're not a disappointment. You've come so far since you came here, I'm so proud of you." Now I started crying. I buried my face into Oppa's chest and hugged him tightly. I've been waiting so long to hear those words. My father never said them and my mother only said them when I got good grades. They never paid attention to my musical achievements and they were never supportive of me.
"I love you too, Oppa," I cried into his chest. He lifted my chin and kissed me again.
"I'm going to go get you new pants, stop the bleeding and go anywhere," he said gently and gave me a few paper towels. I nodded and he left. I stopped the bleeding like he told me to and not long after Oppa came back with a different pair of sweatpants.
"I'm sorry if they're too big, they're mine," he said and I put on the sweatpants which were way too long for me, but I didn't mind because they were Oppa's.
"Wait," he said and pulled down my pants again. He pulled out some bandages (the professional looking kind) and wrapped my legs. He then pulled my pants back up and gave me a piggyback ride all the way back to my dorm. He set me down, kissed me again, and hugged me.
"Don't do it any more," he whispered.
"I'll try," I replied and went inside. Miyako-chan was watching TV but she heard me come in.
"Why you so late?" she asked.
"I met up with Oppa for a bit, why didn't you wake me up this morning?" I asked.
"I did, I think 30 times, but you kept going to sleep. The last time I walked in you were hugging your pillow saying 'Oppa, why are you so fluffy?' and I was done," she said.
"Oh," I said, embarrassed, "Okay." I went to the kitchen and made ramen.
"You know, we have to start eating things other than ramen," I called to Miyako-chan.
"Hai, hai, I know, but we don't have time," she called back.
"That's true. Okey dokey, we go grocery shopping on Sunday!" I declared and Miyako-chan cheered.
"Adventuuuuure!" She yelled and I laughed. I walked into the living area with 2 bowls of ramen.
"Woo!" I shouted and sat down next to Miyako-chan on the sofa. We ate our ramen and I went to sleep. It's been a long day.
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