presidential affair

thinking out loud

We had just finished eating dinner in the residence when thinking out loud came on. He slowly stood up reaching his hand outward towards me. I gracefully held on to it as I stood up. His arms wrapped around my waist as mine went around his neck. He pulled me closer so he could rest his head on top of mine. We slowly swayed back and forth. All I could think is how happy I was at this moment. This became our song and we both knew that.
"Emma, I love you so much, " he looked into my eyes.
"I love you, Jack. I love you so much, " I leaned my head back on his chest as the song continued. Even though I couldn't see him I knew that he was smiling. This is what I have always wanted. He and I are finally happy. Being together, with what seems like no other obstacles in our way. This had become our song. Our first song was They Don't Know About Us by One Direction.

We were on the trail for what had seemed like forever. We had all grown closer, quickly. Especially Jack and I, neither one of us meant for it to happen but it did. We were on the bus one late night. Me and him sitting beside each other. Music quietly played over the speaker since almost everyone was asleep. I started humming the song without even thinking about it.

" You know that this could be our song," He said while looking at me.

"What?" I asked looking back at him. First I thought I heard him wrong. But I knew what I heard.

"This song, It could be our song, every couple has a song, and I think this song could be ours. You know 'They don't know I've waited all my life,'"  He sang softly with a small chuckle after.

"This song could be ours but we aren't a couple,"  I said trying to drive him away from the topic.

"Yet." He said looking at me.

"Jack...You know... I love this song." I looked back at him. There was a shimer in his eyes that hadn't been there before. Hope, I was giving hope and I didn't plan on taking it away. That was the first time we decided we needed a song.

We continued to slow dance until the song came to a stop. Our current song spoke words that we had a hard time finding, just like our first song. Another song came on and we continued to dance. Nothing was getting in our way tonight...

I slowly pulled my head away from his chest and looked into his eyes. A small single tear and left my eye. "Jack... I'm pregnant."
"What? What! Emma no. You better not be messing with me."
"Jack I'm not but we need to talk about this. I love you so much but this baby, It can't be yours I mean not in the public eye. I know how excited you are for it but you just got divorced, you can't already be pregnant with your press secretary's baby."
"Emma... what do you want me to do about it. What can we do about it?"
"I'm not sure yet. I just found out and I think we need a few days to talk about our options."

"Our options?"

"Yes, Jack our options," his look changed from excitement to confusion, worry, anger. "We have options, and we have time to figure them out. You've barely been divorced. People are smart they would bring our entire relationship into focus. They would put out timelines about us. I want a baby, I do. I want your kids. God, they would be perfect, but Jack it's not our time."

"So what you go away for 9 months and come back with a kid. Or give it away. I don't think I can live with knowing our kid is out there living a life when we could give it everything here."

"You know there is another option."

"No."

"No? You don't get to say no. You know it is what has to happen. It's not my first option. And I never thought I would be here but you know I have to."

"I... I don't know Emma. I need to think for a couple of days. Please,"

"Okay we can sit on it for a few days but ultimate we need to make a decision sooner rather than later."