presidential affair

blindsided

It was around day 4 of me being home. I had been trying to figure out what to say since Jack told me to tell her. We were at her house watching TV when Jack came on. I let out a small laugh.
"I didn't know he could do his own press," I smiled towards her. It was now or never. I grabbed the remote and hit mute. I could listen later.
"Shouldn't you be listening to that."
"I already read over it about 20 minutes ago. I had an aid send it to me. But I haven't been honest with you. I need to tell you something and I need you to just sit her and listen until the end okay?"
"Yeah.. okay"
"I've been sleeping with him. Well in the past. Not currently but we need to start at the beginning. It literally started on the day I joined the trail. We meet and it was like this instant connection. And normally I'm not the person to be like love at first sight but this man was the love of my life. But he was married, well he is still married. So I told him that there was nothing between us because it was for the better. We still worked together and we got closer. He wanted me to be his chief of staff before I said no and that's why I'm the press secretary. So everything was fine until inauguration night. That's when we first did things. In the oval office. On the desk. But I was like no, one and done no more. Then I came home for chirstmas and had that small slip up but I don't think anyone noticed. When I had said that it felt like I was sleeping with the President sometimes. Then I found out that night that some of the secret service guys knew. Then another time he came over from drinks and it happened again. Then the accident happened and we were all lovey but that's the night I resigned. I had to walk away. Then for three months, I heard nothing, It was radio silence from him and the rest of the White House. I was working at a coffee shop and he showed up. He offered me my job back. I was also dating someone at the time. He ended up breaking up with me because he thought something was happening. Jack told me he was getting a divorce after the re-election. Win or lose. so I went back and he tried to get me again. But I yet again was like no. Until we were locked in a freaking bunker together we kissed. But thats pretty much it. But I love him so much. And he loves me. and James, the actual chief of staff knows. I just hate having to wait. And I always have that thought of what if he really doesn't do it. What if he doesn't actually get a divorce. Or if he waits until after his second term. I'm scared because I never expected to fall for a married man. Let alone the president."
"Oh wow. That's a lot to take in."
"I can't believe I told you. I haven't told anyone. James figured it out by himself and me and jack had to come clean. But you can't tell anyone. I mean take this with you to the grave. Or like at least until the divorce and him and I are together."
"Yes of course honey I know. So you wait for him. You love him why would you leave him again. You left once and you saw what that did to both of you. So stay, wait it out. and you could be totally right. He could do it after this term or he could wait. But if he does... I see how much you love him. So I can't tell you what you can and can't do. But like I've told you before. You know what you need to do. I think it was very smart of you to tell him that nothing will happen. You are very good at your job so I'm glad you went back. I'm glad you finally told me. Finally told someone."
"Thank you. For everything."
"Of course anything for you. Also, can I just say wow, you work with and well are involved with the president? Like you know him personally, and the vice president, and the first lady. I'm just starstruck because I see you as a normal person but you're not."
"Oh and Hanna. She knows. Well, I'm not sure what she knows but she knows something and some days she acts like my best friend and others she hates my guts. Like on the trail everything was fine we were getting closer. You know then after that first time it's like she knew, right away, and then she hated me. Then I left and I came back and we were fine. And we were back and forth. I just felt terrible lying to her face. I would smile for her and take off my clothes for him. That's another reason. Cause I couldn't keep going behind her back. I also felt bad for their kids because frankly, their dad was a whore. "
"It's messy. And It probably will always be. At least until he is done with his terms. But you will always be in that public light. From now on. That's another part of this you have to make up your mind about. This isn't an easy choice to make. But you've seemed to have made it. Yeah?"
"Yeah... I just have to wait. And you know how impatient I am. Oh and he knows about you. I talk about you, a lot actual. And he knows I'm telling you this."
"You talk about me? I hope good things."
"Yes, of course grams. I pretty much told him how you were the one to tell me to come back. And after you called me when you found out I was in danger. He came to check on me. I told him how much I missed you. And blah blah blah and he remembered almost everything I said about you."
"I know you're scared about waiting but it seems like you really do love him. You need to hold on to him no matter what okay."
"Yeah, okay. Thank you so much"
"Anytime for you."