My 7 Mystery Mafia Brothers

Chapter 19 - Forgiveness

Y/n pov

I immediately slammed the door as I entered my room, just when I thought things between us were getting better. I just can’t stand them all they ever do is judge me and hurt me.

No matter what it is I’m doing they always find a fault in it. It got so bad that I even started to question myself. I lost all my confidence because of them.

I need time away from them even if it’s just a couple of hours. With that thought I made my way down the stairs and out the back door just like I did last time.

I don’t know where I’m going as long as I’m away from those devil’s I don’t really care. After about half an hour of walking I ended up at my uncle's grave.

I kneeled down to it and closed my eyes listening the peaceful sounds of nature. There was a gentle wind blowing on the leaves of trees ever so slightly making a calming sound. A couple of birds were gently singing in trees. For a minute I imagined what it'd be like being a bird. Just flying around free seeing the world from a different perspective.

I wonder what they think of the world. Do they think of it as a bright and beautiful place full of hope and love or do they see it for what it really is: a dark place fuelled by greed, pain and suffering.

I opened my eyes and took a deep breath taking in as much of the fresh air as possible. It feels nice to be here, everything is so calm. I looked up at the beautiful blue sky and started speaking.

“I miss you Uncle Sang-hoon it’s not the same without you. I’ve made some great friends and found my cousins but I feel lonelier than ever.”

It’s strange how you can be surrounded by so many people who love you and care for you yet still feel so alone. Society can’t seem to understand why people who are loved can be sad. We don’t feel we’re allowed to be sad because we might not have the worst lives. It seems as though our emotions are invalidated because our experiences aren’t as bad as someone else’s.

It's stupid really because if everyone lived the exact same life as each other there wouldn’t really be many emotions it would all just be normal. People live different life's and experience different things. We should be allowed to be upset over things even if it's small because the brightest smiles hide the most pain.

Invalidating a person’s feelings only makes things worse. They slowly get trapped, they no longer feel valued and stop sharing their feelings. They feel as though if they’re not happy then they are not wanted, sometimes people don’t even notice that they’re making people feel this way by saying things like “Oh me too I feel the same way let me tell you about it.” That only makes the person feel ignored and unimportant. We need to stop and listen to people you never truly know what someone is going through or how they’re feeling, it's easy to fake a smile.

"I should get going, Uncle Sang-hoon. Please stay by my side. I really hope I'm making you proud, I'm trying my best too. I love you Uncle." I slowly stand up and start walking home.

The walk home was relaxing. The sun was slowly going down and the moon was coming up. The sky was painted orange, pink and blue. It looked as though it was straight out of an art gallery.

As I reached the back garden I took a deep breath before sneaking back into the house. I was about to go to my room when Hoseok spoke.

"Y/n we would like to talk to you." He said looking down at the ground.

"Ok." I said and followed him to the living room where the rest were all seated. I quickly sat down on the empty chair in front of the long couch where they were all seated. There was an awkward silence as they all looked at each other figuring out who would go first.

"I take it you're not used to apologising." I said smiling a little as I found it quite funny.

"No not really." Namjoon said scratching his neck. Finally after another long pause Yoongi spoke.

"Umm we were wrong and we shouldn't have said those things to you. Honestly there is no excuse for it, we don't really know why we said it." He said.

"We're really sorry for the things we said to you it's far from the truth. We know you're not like the other girls in our school who like to sleep around." Taehyung spoke.

"Do you guys include yourselves in the category?" I asked laughing at their awkward apology.

"I guess." Jimin said, laughing a little. "We're really sorry Y/n." He said.

"Sorry." They all said at the same time.

"It's ok, I forgive you guys just please don't speak like this to anyone else, ok?"

"Ok." They all said smiling a little. I smiled back and we all headed to the dining room for dinner.

A/n pov

I know that some people right now will be mad at Y/n for forgiving them so easily. They will think she's weak and sensitive but the truth is only the strongest of people forgive others.

Holding a grudge against someone might seem like the right thing to do but I promise you it's not. Forgiveness is one the most important things in the world and people find it hard to forgive as they mix it up with forgetting.

Just because you forgive someone doesn't mean you should forget how they've hurt you, it doesn't mean that you should forget about everything and marry the person. If they've hurt you then you should absolutely stay away from them but if you don't forgive them they will continue to do the same thing to other people. Forgiveness gives someone a chance to become a better person and learn from their past mistakes. It also allows you to feel a sense of relief. It makes moving on easier. Always try to find it in your heart to forgive.

Y/n pov

I feel better now that we've talked things out. Tomorrow is a new day and a chance for a better time.

Question of the chapter - What's your favourite colour/color - Mines is light pink

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