I am not him.. | nomin/renmin

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Doyoung went home after school
finished and was greeted by Jeno sleeping on the couch, face looking really puffy.
He decided to not wake him up and made himself something to eat. He was honestly really fucking tired. A shade of red creeped on to his face when he remembered his hot
'nursing check up' with Taeyong. He immediate thought about places he could take him for their first date but was interrupted by a chair scooting besides him. He turned his head to see Jeno taking a peace of the carrots he had sliced himself before.

"You look like shit"
The other rolled his eyes in annoyance.
"Why do people keep saying that?"
Doyoung shrugged his shoulders.
"Doesn't it make you think about it?"
Jeno took another peace of the carrot.
"Yea well, I am allowed to look shitty because I feel like it."
The older knew why. He also knew, thanks to having his internship as a nurse at the school, that he could probably give Jeno hope again, but he wasn't sure if he wanted to speak for Jaemin. Maybe he could push him a little in the right direction.

"Jaemin had a panic attack."
Jenos heart immediately fastened it's pace but he tried to not let it show, he didn't want to care about him anymore.
"It was last a few days ago actually. I thought he would tell you but it seems like you two don't talk anymore so I thought I should."
Jeno was still being silent.

I don't care, I don't care, I don't care!

"He said you two had a fight."
Jeno hummed in response.
Fucking hell, Jaemin had a panic attack because of him. He wanted to hate him so bad, but right now he hated himself even more.
He just took off, not thinking of how fragile Jaemin was.

"So I'm assuming things with Yuqi didn't work out because you fell for Jaemin?"
Finally Jeno turned his head to look at his cousin.

"Yeah he told us. I was actually surprised he didn't even look ashamed when he told Jaehyun that the two of you had sex."
Janos face turned red immediately.
"You topped right?"
The younger hit him on the arm out of embarrassment.
"Yaah!

...

Of course I did."

Both of them laughed at that but when they got quiet again Jeno felt the urge to ask his cousin even though he already knew the answer.
"Do you think it's weird?"
Doyoung raised his eyebrows in confusion.
"What? That you aren't bottoming? I mean Jaemin can be top material I guess but I still think- autsch"

He got interrupted by a slap on his head and chuckled again.
"Sorry, sorry. But are you seriously asking me if I think it's weird that you like boys? I am literally dating Taeyong."
He is eyes widened at that.
"You are what? Since when?"
Doyoung smiled at him awkwardly and decided to go back to the original topic.

"Long story, I'll tell you another time. But I think you should talk to Jaemin."
Jeno led his eyes back to the food on the table.
"Why should I."
It didn't really sound like a question but Doyoung kept on anyways.
"I just think you should. Trust me. I really want you two to sort things out."
The other one stayed quiet a little longer before he spoke again.
"Maybe we should. We'll see."
Doyoung was at least a little satisfied with that answer but made sure to look if he'd really do so.

"I feel like now you should tell me about you and Taeyong since you know about me and Jaemin and the.. specifics."
Doyoung told him everything and Jeno was really in disbelief most of the time.
My straight cousin really be hitting it off huh?