I am not him.. | nomin/renmin

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Author pov.
The two boys have arrived at Jenos Appartement a while ago and Jeno still couldn't shake of his awkward feelings. He felt so bad.
But he kept on playing it off, trying to concentrate on work.

"I don't get it, how is that even supposed make sense?"
He mumbled more to himself, but Jaemin heard it and went to help his friend.
Standing behind the older, that was sitting on his desk chair, leaning over to see where his problems were.

But what Jeno saw was different.
He suddenly felt a warm breath on his neck. A body, closing all the space between those two, by leaning over to him.

"Let me help you with that."
Was his voice lower or am I imagining things now?

He couldn't listen to Jaemins explanation, he was way to focused on what was happening.

But when he felt the youngest body leaning closer again, he couldn't take it anymore.
He jumped off his chair.
Jaemin looked at the latter, confused about what just had happened.

"You okay? Come on let's just try to solve your problem."
He said taking the others hand.
Solve my problem??
He quickly snatched his hand out of the others, who looked at him, again, confused about what the hell just happened.

"Nana.."
Using the cute nickname he gave the other, he tried to find a way to start his sentence.
The other only raised an eyebrow questioning.

"..y-you know.. you know I like girls right?"
He said as careful as possible, trying to find a way to say what he was about to, without hurting the other.

"Yeah.. so?"

"I- Look. You know I like you.
Hell, I could even say I love you by now! But.. I do that as a friend.."
Oh god. I said it. OH MY HOLY FUCKING GOD I SAID IT!

"Naaaw.. I love you too Nono.."
the other said, smiling widely about his friends words, wanting to hug him, but the other held his hands Infront of the boys chest, wanting to stop him from doing so.

"No. Jaemin."
The other staid quiet

"I don't have feelings for you. I don't like guys that way. I am straight. And I am sorry that you had to fall for a straight guy, but I will never like you. Not that way."
He said now directly, wanting to clear the situation for good.
Jaemin stared at the other in disbelief for a while..
..and than he started to laugh out so loud, he was nearly crying.

What the hell is happening? Is he going insane? Oh shit, what have I done?!

"Jaemin I am being serious."
He said again, but the other just started to laugh harder again, pressing out a few words.
"S-Sure.."

"Jaemin!"
The said males laughter died slowly. Very slowly.

"I-I believe you Jeno.."
he said between his quiet laughter's.
".. but why the hell are you telling me this?"

"W-Well because .. I thought.. I thought you have feelings for me"
he said, his words becoming more quiet towards the end.

The other couldn't believe it.
"But why?"

"I-I don't know, Donghyuck told me so and I started to realise you always staring at me and clinging on to me.."
he felt really embarrassed now, noticing, he might have been wrong.

"Nono.. I know I clinge on to you a lot. But I do that because I feel comfortable around you. I just treat my friends that way. And if I'm being honest, lately, I feel more close to you that to anyone. So yeah.. I do clinge on to you a lot. Don't think to much about it Nono."

Jeno let out a heavy breath he held in.
"Why the hell did Donghyuck tell me that? I felt so bad, I thought I had to reject you."

"Oooh, that's sweet Nono. But you could never."

Excuse me?

"As far as I remember I just did"

"To be exact, I rejected you."

"What? That doesn't even make sense.."

"It doesn't have to."
Jeno chuckled lightly, happy that they stayed comfortable around each other and then begun to speak again.
"So.. if it's not me you have a crush on. Who is it?"
And just like that a read colour spread across the youngest face. Again.

"Come on Jaemin. You can tell me. You said it yourself, we are kind of best friends right?"
The blond boy sighted.

"Okay."
Jenos eyes widened.
Huh?? Just like that?

"But you have to guess. It's to embarrassing to tell you"
he half whined.

"Okay! Hmm.. who could it be..?"
To be honest, he had no idea.,

"Come on Nono. It's not that hard to notice if you rethink everything you said about my supposed crush on you."
He's really doing that. He's about to expose himself. His long held secret.

And with that said, it made klick in Jenos head.

The way Jaemin always looked at his table when they had class.
The way he always blushed at the mention of his friends.
And the way there was only one of Jenos friends he hasn't talked with yet, except for saying hello.
He wasn't looking at Jeno all the time. He was looking at his seat partner.

He looked at the younger with wide eyes .

"Noooooo..."

"Yes."

"You like Renjun?!"

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Oooooh my.

So I bet you couldn't guess who he was huh😏

I hope you enjoyed this short chapter♥️🎠

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By the way, if you haven't guessed by now, I am not native English.
Since my keyboard isn't English it sometimes writes nonsense and confuses words like "now/know".
I try to find all the typos before uploading, but if not, just ignore or tell me. I don't care editing it ^^