Trigger warning: the chapter will tackle some very sensitive topics, depression, self harm,self loathing, abuse, death and suicide.
If you are suffering from depression or any type of mental illness, please do seek help and know that you are worthy of existing💖 and that you don't have to carry everything on your back. There are people who support you! And im one of those💖
************************Light blue eyes stared at the city below her, the cool wind blowing her hair that she let loose. for today she will set herself free.. She took off her shoes and stood on the edge of the building her feet shook a bit from the cold cement of the floor, she took a deep breathe and started to laugh while tears streamed down her face as she recalls every memory she has. All the abuse she went through from her step father, the moment her dad left her, the time her mother succumbed to an illness, and those times where she just spent her days alone. She looked at her arms and pulled her hoodie's sleeves up and stared at her cuts. It will finally all stop hurting.. She said.
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Armin's P.O.V.
I was enjoying my midnight stroll when i noticed a figure on top of an abandoned building, my eyes widened. it was someone that looked like they were trying to jump off! I barely noticed it but my body immediately sprung to action, i found myself dashing through the stairs hoping i wasnt too late. I swung the rooftop doors open and saw a lady at the edge of the building she had one foot off of the edge already.
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Annie's P.O.V
I had one foot off the edge already i didn't fully jump off yet because there's some part of me.. That wanted to be stopped.. Because i know to myself that death isn't what i want.. What i truly want is for the pain and sadness to die.. Not me.., i sighed this is it.. No more turning back annie..i told myself.. As i prepared to jump off, till i felt arms wrap around my waist pulling me against them preventing me from falling of the roof.
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I turned to look at the person that saved me. he had golden blonde hair with an undercut , his eyes were closed and he was breathing heavily and sweating ,he looked tired but his grip on my waist never faltered, i felt warmth in his grasp.. This was the first time ive felt warm eversince my mother's passing, his touch made me comfortable but i realised that no matter how good he seemed like.. he was still a stranger. So i pushed him away.Who are you?! I asked the blonde guy in front of me. O-oh Im armin arlert, um.. Im sorry if i scared you miss? Im annie i told him. Annie, thats a nice name he smiled. I looked away in embaressment no one's ever complimented me. Armin then looked at me seriously in the eyes and held my shoulders in a gentle but firm grip. W-what are you doing? I asked him, hey..annie, i know i dont know you well.. But can i ask you why you tried to jump off? He said. I-I
I looked away from him, can i trust him? I just met him today but there's something that feels familliar about him- its like i have met him before.. Weird.. I decided to go with my gut feeling and trust him.I had personal problems thats what.. And they just piled up and i couldnt take it anymore.. I said while looking down.
I felt him pull me closer to him, now i could hear armin's heart beat and feel his warmth surround me, i blushed i didnt know what to do with this situation.Armin's P.O.V
I pulled annie closer to me and enveloped her in a hug because i felt like she needed it, Annie.. I know we just met today and not really under the best circumstances.. But, i cupped her face and made her look at me, she looked cute when she's blushing but i also took note of how red her eyes were.. She must have been crying.. I felt sad at that thought and stared at her again, Annie... I might be overstepping my boundaries.. But i want you to know that im willing to listen to your problems, i want to be your friend.. You dont have to carry the emotional baggage alone, I'll be the shoulder you can cry on, I held her hand, Im here now..Annie's P.O.V
"im here now" armin said softly.
My eyes widened in bewilderment, I-I.. tears formed in her eyes. She was shocked that a person like him existed because for her entire life no one ever bothered to want to listen to her and now here he was willing to listen.. She began to cry no one had ever been willing to be there for her up until now. She wrapped her arms around his neck, T-thank you sob* thank y-you so much, she said in between her sobs.
He patted her head and comfortingly said there.. there.. Let it all out.. Cry the pain out..
Annie cried louder letting go of all the emotinal pain she has whilst armin continued to pat her hair and hug her.Armin's P.O.V
I listened to annie's cries.. I wanted to hug her so tight and just take the pain away.. But right now all i could do was be here for her. She then stopped crying, and looked at me annie sighed and said that felt nice.. To let it all out.. Armin.. I-I was abused by my step father she started sharing her problems, My eyes widened at what she said, but i didnt want to talk yet so as not to interupt so i just held her hand and gave it a squeeze. You see my dad left my mother when i was 6. a year after that my mom remarried.. My step father was nice at first.. Not until my mom got sick... And.. tears fell from annie's eyes again but she quickly rubbed them off and continued. My mom died.. From leukemia.. So my step father was left in charge of me.. He didnt take my mom's death too well he took out all his pain and rage on me.. And started beating me.. I felt sorry for annie.. She doesnt deserve it.. I hugged her and she hugged back, So in highschool i became a delinquent.. Nobody dared approach me because i was intimidating.. So i was mostly alone.. There were times where i was noticed but not in a good way.. Some guys would try and pick a fight with me by mocking me and such..calling me ugly and big nosed.. It was also in those years where i started to cut myself.. I had suicidal thoughts.. I felt like i was a monster.. I thought that if i hurt myself physically it would numb the emotional pain.. Haha she laughed a bit, that was stupid of me.. What kind of logic was that?... It didnt do anything it just made me feel even more pain.. She said sadly.
I took a deep breathe and prepared to give her my opinion and support.
Annie.. Life..was cruel to you.. You didnt deserve any of that, You didnt deserve to take on your step father's pain and rage.. You didnt deserve to be alone ,you arent ugly either.. I think you are pretty actually- i said while blushing but i continued, and you arent a monster.. You are far from being one! Right now all i see is a damaged good person.. That needs to heal.. And i'll help you with that.. And make you see that death isnt the only answer to free yourself from the pain.. I said and looked at her with determined eyes.
Annie looked at in me in disbelief and then turned pink and looked away. Thank you so much armin.. She said lowly but i heard it. No problem annie i replied. Say do you wanna get off the floor? Its getting pretty cold now i asked her. She smiled sure..
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.That day a sad soul was saved and rescued. her scars were not gone but someone finally gave her bandages,not to cover them up but to start their way onto healing. That day was also the day the crystal blue eyed girl found warmth in someone unexpected. That day marked a start of something that would grow into more with time. Beneath the stars and cold breeze she found comfort in the ocean eyed boy who showed her that death was'nt the answer.
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