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part 21

Y/N POV
i ran up to my room and locked the door. "fuck" i say and rip off all my clothes. ugh ugh ugh. i feel sick. i need to sleep.
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i haven't slept and it's 5am. i go downstairs and grab some beers and a bottle of malibu. i run back to my room and lock the door again "i guess it's just you and i" i say and laugh. i chug the beers and sip out of the bottle. "yummy" i whisper and turn on the tv. i continue to sip the alcohol and watch the movie. "i need something stronger than this" i said to myself. oh fuck i have to go to sleep. i have to go to the studio tomorrow
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i woke up to my alarm. i only got an hour of sleep. i groaned and changed my clothes. i walked downstairs and connected eyes with noah. without saying anything gave me a hug. "i love you" he said and let me go. i separated and sent him a small smile. i cant even tell my friends that i love them. i feel like it's going to be a good writing day
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"okay y/n can we record what you've been writing in the last 5 hours" my producer asked "i wanna make this a duet" i tell him and hand him the lyrics "any idea who" he asked "christina aguilera" i told him and he nodded "any other songs" he asked "yeah let's record this one" i tell him and get into the booth.

Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
A broken heart is all that's left
I'm still fixing all the cracks
Lost a couple of pieces when
I carried it, carried it, carried it home
I'm afraid of all I am
My mind feels like a foreign land
Silence ringing inside my head
Please, carry me, carry me, carry me home
I've spent all of the love I saved
We were always a losing game
Small-town boy in a big arcade
I got addicted to a losing game
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
How many pennies in the slot?
Giving us up didn't take a lot
I saw the end 'fore it begun
Still I carried, I carried, I carried on
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
I don't need your games, game over
Get me off this rollercoaster
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

we ran it back 20 times and i finally found the rhythm i wanted. we then made a beat and by then it was 2am. "okay go home i'll mess around for a bit" i told my producer and he thanked me. he left. "they always leave" i say under my breathe.

I look up from the ground to see your sad and teary eyes
You look away from me and I see
There's something you're trying to hide
And I reach for your hand but it's cold, you pull away again
And I wonder what's on your mind
And then you say to me you made a dumb mistake
You start to tremble and your voice begins to break
You say the cigarettes on the counter weren't your friend's
They were my mate's
And I feel the color draining from my face
And my friend said
I know you love her, but it's over, mate
It doesn't matter, put the phone away
It's never easy to walk away, let her go
It'll be alright
So I asked to look back at all the messages you'd sent
And I know it wasn't right, but it was fucking with my head
And everything deleted like the past, yea it was gone
And when I touched your face, I could tell you're moving on
But it's not the fact that you kissed him yesterday
It's the feeling of betrayal, that I just can't seem to shake
And everything I know tells me that I should walk away
But I just want to stay
And my friend said
I know you love her, but it's over, mate
It doesn't matter, put the phone away
It's never easy to walk away, let her go
It'll be okay
It's gonna hurt for a bit of time
So bottoms up, let's forget tonight
You'll find another and you'll be just fine
Let her go
But nothing heals
The past like time
And they can't steal
The love you're born to find
But nothing heals
The past like time
And they can't steal
The love you're born to find
I know you love her, but it's over, mate
It doesn't matter, put the phone away
It's never easy to walk away, let her go
It'll be okay
It's gonna hurt for a bit of time
So bottoms up, let's forget tonight
You'll find another and you'll be just fine
Let her go
It'll be alright
It'll be alright
It'll be alright
It'll be alright
It'll be alright