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part 15

Y/N POV

madisonbeer: wanna hang?

"she wants to hangout with me" i said and looked back at dev who had her jaw dropped "GET THAT PUSSY" anna joked and i cringed "please never say that again" i told her and she laughed. eva wasn't here anymore i think she left. "evas mad isn't she" dev said and i tilted my head in confusion "she feels like she's getting you back and now madison fucking beer just dm'd you " anna said and i immediately ran to evas room. i knocked on the door and heard a faint 'come in' so i opened the door. she wiped her tears quickly and fake smiled at me. i didn't say anything i just hugged her "i'm sorry i shouldn't even be getting upset over that" she said into my neck "you have every right to actually. i've literally been coming to you about everything and i'm sorry" i said and look down. i felt a human body on my lap and met eyes with eva "i'm happy you're coming to me for things and not holding it in. of course it hurts because i'm still madly inlove with you but i know it was my fault. i should've kept my promise and waited" she said and put her head in the crook of my neck "no i shouldn't have went with chris that night. and-" "don't you dare blame yourself for any of this" eva cut me off. i just nodded and kept eyes contact, "i'm sorry" she said and i knew she was genuine "i know and i accept your apology" i said and we were still making eye contact. she put her head in my neck and i felt her smile, she still gives me butterflies it's crazy. "i love you y/n and i promise if you ever want to be with me again i'll wait" she said into my neck "i love you too eva and i hope we find eachother again, i do believe that you're my soulmate" i said and i felt her kiss my neck. i smiled but quickly snapped out of it "but i do feel like i'm your second choice, i know i haven't said this but it's almost like you're with people and then you want me" i said and she looked up "you're not a second choice, you're my first i promise. i'm going to be here for you, okay?" she says and i nod. "i think i'm going to go to the studio" i tell her "can i come" she asks and i nod. everyone ended up coming with me.
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my producer was here and he met everyone. "y/n do you think you could make a song to this beat i got today" he asks "let me hear" i said

"sheesh ummm actually i have a song that i think i could make work" i said and he pointed to the booth
(bold is your producer)
Counting days, counting days since my love up and got lost on me
And every breath that I've been taken since you left feels like a waste on me
I've been holding on to hope that you'll come back when you can find some peace
Cause every word that I've heard spoken since you left feels like a hollow street

I've been told, I've been told to get you off my mind
But I hope I never lose the bruises that you left behind
Oh my lord, oh my lord, I need you by my side
"give it your all"
There must be something in the water
Cause everyday it's getting colder
And if only I could hold you
You'd keep my head from going under

Maybe I, maybe I'm just being blinded by the brighter side
Of what we had because it's over, well there must be something in the tide

I've been told, I've been told to get you off my mind
But I hope I never lose the bruises that you left behind
Oh my lord, oh my lord, I need you by my side
"again"
There must be something in the water
Cause everyday it's getting colder
And if only I could hold you
You'd keep my head from going under
"lighter"
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooooh

It's your love I'm lost in
Your love I'm lost in
Your love I'm lost in
And I'm tired of being so exhausted
Your love I'm lost in
Your love I'm lost in
Your love I'm lost in
Even though I'm nothing to you now
Even though I'm nothing to you now

There must be something in the water
Cause everyday it's getting colder
"GO OFF"
And if only I could hold you
You'd keep my head from going under

There must be something in the water
Cause everyday it's getting colder
And if only I could hold you
You'd keep my head from going under

"YESSS run it back" my producer said and i ran it back like 15 times. after he hugged me "fucking weirdo" i said and tapped his head. it's been 10 minutes of us just sitting in silence until i heard"let's hear it"

"shit y/n" dev said "yupp this is the one" anna said and pointed up "added to depression time" eva said and we all laugh. "you can drop this whenever you want" my producer said "maybe i'll save it for a new album" i said and winked playfully "if you want we can have a photoshoot" he said and i smiled. "also i think i want you to hop on a beat that's happier, to kinda add more instead of 'i wanna slice my throat open' vibes, if not it's okay" he added and i laughed "yeah i'll write something" i told him "also i got a call and possibly billie wants to make a song with you" he said and i snap my head towards him "BILLIE EILISH" i asked and he nodded. no way. i dap him up and call it a day. we walked out to my car "should we listen again" i asked them and they all said 'yes' in sync. "okay but what will you call the song" eva asked "mmm idk" i said " what about 'bruises' since you talk about how you don't want to loose the bruises that they left behind" dev suggests "damn since when are you smart" i said looking at her through my mirror. she hit my arm and we all laughed.
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i left a bit ago and headed to sway "WASSUP BITCHES" i screamed and the boys smiled at me "where were you" blake wines "i made a new song" i said and they gave me a hug. "we gave a sway shoot tomorrow " bryce told me and i nodded. i walked upstairs and decided to play video games for the first time in a bit. i got a facetime call from eva and answered "hi" she said shyly " hey" i replied "whatchu doing" she asked "playing call of duty what about you" i asked her " i'm just chilling, y/n" eva said "yes" i asked "can um *clears throat* can we possibly try us again, like we can move super slow but i just want you. i love you so much and i'm scared you'll fall inlove with someone else when you're the only thing that's on my mind-" "yeah eva we can try us again, how about a date tomorrow" i cut her off and she nodded whilst smiling. i smiled at her smiling "any new songs" she asked "um i have another sad one, the one with billie, and i letting go song, more like 'fuck you' get it" i said and we continue to talk to for awhile.
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i woke up and hit the gym.

eva: goodmorning, what time is the date?
y/n: maybe we can go soon so we can have a movie night?
eva: great pick me up in 2 hours?
y/n: yeah i also have a shoot for sway so i'll just text you after that
eva: okay :)

i took a shower and got dressed. i walked downstairs and started taking pictures.
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i just got done with the shoot

y/n: i'm done now, do you want me to pick you up now?
eva: sure
y/n: see ya in 15

i then grabbed my keys and got into my car. i got to jah and knocked on the door. "hi" i got welcomed by eva "hey" i said and hugged her.
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the date was successful. we just catched up and that was pretty much it. eva apologized so much and i know she was sincere. "again i'm so sorry-shut up eva i know you're sorry and i forgive you" i cut her off "wanna listen to another unreleased" i asked changing the subject "sure" she said and i put on 'all i want' and we listened. " well that was um incredible i still don't know how you do it" she said and i laughed. we then got back to jah and i walked in hand and hand with eva. "YES YES YES" anna jumped up off the couch and ran to me "sugar plum" dev said in an 'aw' voice "shut up" i hit her shoulder "if you'll excuse us, we have a lot of anime to watch" i said and dragged eva upstairs. we got to evas room and i took my sweatshirt off which left me in sweats and a wife beater. i jumped on her bed and opened my arms to which she jumped into them. "thank you for our date i had a great time" eva told me "thank you i had a outstanding time as well" i said and kissed her forehead.
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