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Y/n Y/ln is a regular teenage girl. She has a little sister named Cassandra Y/ln and she is the biggest fan of the nj boys but y/n isn't. One day y/n has to move with her sister to New Jersey and she bumps into a group of boys at the mal...
I woke up the next morning and saw all the boys sleeping. If they spent a night but idc cuz what they did yesterday really fucking hurt me. I wanted to bring them to my passed on family members grave to meet them and get this I never brought NO ONE not even James and Larray so can you see how important it was to me.
I sniffed and no I wasn't crying it was just something I do in the morning. Anyways I walked to the bathroom and took a shower. Next I did my skincare and put some light makeup. Tomorrow we are going to New York for Alejandro so I'll guessing that's why the boys are spending the night here.
Anyways I grabbed the clothes that I left on the toilet and put it on.
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Just a chill outfit yk. I walked out the bathroom quietly and shut the door. Honestly hate the mornings but it's 11:40am right now so I had to get up. We decided to skip the rest of the school week and yes it was ok with the parents.
I rubbed my eyes and made my way up to the kitchen. Mirna and Giacomo were at work already so I started making breakfast for me and the boys. As I was making pancakes Gianluca came out his room and sat on the kitchen table.
Gian: morning He smiled at me and I smiled back. You: morning I still had my raspy voice ofc.
I flipped the pancake over and made 2 more for gian. I laid it down on a plate then went to give it to him. I set it down with a side of orange juice and some fruits.
Gian: thanks He said grabbing the fork off the table. I nodded and went back to cooking. Gian: where the boys I said "still sleeping". Gian said "ok" and went back to his room.
I made enough pancakes for me and the boys and since I usually like peace and quiet while eating I sat down at the table and started eating. Yes I do read sometimes so I grabbed my book "long way down" and continued reading it. It's honestly a good book.
Today I just feel like being alone. Idk why but I do. I grabbed my airpods and thank god the boys are still sleeping so I walked out the front door and started my music. I was just walking in the cold air. It was so calming. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I was just dead. yk? It was peaceful until this boy came up to me.
??: hey I just wanted to say your very beautiful and can I get our number I chuckled and turned off my music. You: thank you but I have a boyfriend He looked down.
??: he's a lucky dude well have a good day "You too" then he walked away. It felt good to have someone call me beautiful. I don't feel beautiful but ik they boys think I am and Kai he always makes sure I feel beautiful and just more.
I continued walking until I got to my secret spot. No one knows about this place except me and I would like to keep it this way. One day I was walking alone and I found this area so I went deeper in and it was beautiful so now this is the place I come when I wanna have peace.
My phone was blowing up so of course I texted the boys telling them that I was ok then they stopped texting me.
3:50pm
I decided to go back home. I stopped by my old house first tho. Since no one had bought it yet I stuck in the house and went to my old room.
Emptiness.
Memories.
Happy and sad.
Of course I miss my mom and sister but them leaving was a weight off my shoulders. Sometimes I wished that she loved me the way she loved Cassandra. I wonder if she even loved me to begin. It hurts knowing my mom didn't love me like I love her. All the times I e had a moment was fake. She never cared and never will.
I found a old picture of when my dad and Brandon was still alive but Cassandra wasn't in it. It was just me Brandon my dad and my mom happy and smiling. I guess the boys dropped it. I smiled. Kissed it. Then put it in my pocket. What if Cassandra was never born? Would we be happy? Would I have met the boys? Idc. I'm happy in my life right now.
It was getting late so I left my old house and went back home. They boys were sitting down watching tv like always. Gian was playing Roblox and his parents were on the table.
All: your back They yelled. The boys tried to hug me but I pushed away.
You: I just want to be alone please They all looked down making me feel guilty.
You: I'm not mad I just felt at peace today and I wanna keep it that way Mirna smiled cuz I would tell her every day how I would feel.
I passed the boys and got ready for bed meaning I did my skin care routine, took a shower, packed a little bit and finally went to bed.
