Maybe one day - Tom Holland (English)

She's so gone

I can't even believe that Carolina did this to me, how was she capable of doing this to me? We have been friends forever, she knew everything I felt and even then it was like I was rubbish in her life, I was just an obstacle for her. She said that she only participated in the contest to give me one more chance and then she gets involved with Tom, I will never forgive her for what she did.

It's not possible that I wanted to have anything with him, at least not anymore, to see him naked in my hotel bed clinging to Carolina, I don't know where I grabbed the strength to run out of that hotel, I don't know where I am and everything seems to be spinning around me, moreover it's almost night. What do I do now?

Hours have passed since I left the hotel, I can't sleep in that place, Well not anymore, that's when I realized I should look for another hotel, after 15 minutes I had found a cute hotel, I already had a room, but I hadn't taken anything with me, just my wallet , so yes I had to go back to that place and pick up my bags, but I wasn't going to give them the satisfaction of seeing me as broken as I felt.

Today I did the biggest mistake of my life, Lia will never forgive me, I know well, but what did she expect me to do? Was she expecting for me to simply ignore the boy for the entire trip? The situation was not supposed to happen like that, it wasn't for her to find out that way. When she entered that room she was far from imagining that I, her best friend, was in her bed with Tom, I mean, I was not supposed to even like him and leave the space for them both, but it just happened, perhaps alcohol helped, but not even alcohol will be able to erase the vision I had of her at that moment. Lia was white, it looked like she had seen a ghost, I saw, deep in her eyes that her soul had been reduced to dust and that tears were threatening to fall, but I didn't even worry, I just looked and saw that she went out the door and in a second Tom was kissing me again.

I don't think he even realized what had just happened, so we just stayed there, the two of us enjoying the last rays of sunlight that the small window allowed into the space.

It would be close to 10 pm when she opened the door again, she didn't speak to me, she didn't mention what had happened, she just took some clothes that were scattered around the room and put them in the suitcase without any care. Tom looked confused, not realizing anything. But Lia was no longer concerned, it seemed that quickly where there was a warm look and a warm heart was nothing more than a block of ice, and it was my fault. I've never been so scared in my life.

Lia? Read what are you doing?

Damn it, answer me! - But she didn't answer me, she just looked for lost things in the room.

Where are you going? - I managed to ask before she grabbed the door and as if throwing a thousand knives she answered coldly, looking me in the eyes.

Far away from you and that creature you were in MY bed with! - And having said that, she left the room.

But where is she going at these hours? – I thought.

But what the hell happened here? Wasn't everything okay just now? Why did Lia leave? What a weird thing. Finally I got up from the bed and walked to the bathroom where I found an open notebook, lying on the floor.

In this book you could read:

"Dear Tom, yes today I am going to write as if it were for him, it is weird and awkward, I know, it looks stupid, but today it will have to do.

The last month was the scariest of my life, winning a contest, traveling to London, meeting you, wow, I was afraid you might think I was a fool or a crazy fangirl (I kind of am actually!). You know, the day I saw you for the first time on that call my heart stopped, I was anxious, happy, however nothing contrasted more with my joy than your sad eyes, I know you tried to put those thoughts out of my head. Nor would it be expected that you would do it differently, and you are a wonderful human for that, for the care you have with those around you, but not all the care in the world took that look from my mind.

Finally I arrived in London and everything seemed so magical, the atmosphere, the language, oh the British accent, how I'd die for that accent and there you were, waiting for us with the most enchanted smile in the world and I lost myself again, and as much as i loved the night next to you, the touch of your lips on mine, everything seemed so right that i didn't need to worry about anything else because you would always be by my side. Every smile, every word and every adventure, the dinner on the bridge, running through the busy streets of London with your hand in mine, your fear dissipated, and I fell in love with you even more my dear Tommy. But nothing would make me predict what would come next, but it did and when I went back to the room that night, I had just gone to buy a frame to give you a copy of the most perfect photo I had ever seen, but there you were, in my bed , with Carolina, and the lips that once kissed mine were in the middle of of my best friend's legs, who arched her back and moaned your name, she who did not like you, my little Tom, was in your arms and I I died, I clearly died when I saw you "

At this moment it was impossible to understand what waswritten next because the stains caused by the tears had smeared what Lia hadwritten and Tom realized that he had done a really big mess, and now Lia wasgone!