Journal Of A Therian.

3/27 - Meeting my Wolf

So I know this was yesterday but heres some backstory, I found out about therians the day after  I told my parents I didnt feel like I belonged and I needed a stronger connection, basically everything matched up and I found the word for what I knew I was, and its gotten stronger scence I turned 13. This was a while ago. And so this journal begins at yesterday, the first time I met my wolf.

I was out howling at the moon, but tonight was different. It was a full moon. I wanted to meditate and maybe see my wolf, but I hated to do it inside. So to clear my head, I took my dog for a moonlight walk. She was scared, and so I was talking to her, and I went down on my hands and knees to try to get her to follow me and join in. So i'm on my hands and knees, next to the forest, under a full moon, and I close my eyes and try to meditate, while my dog tries to run into the house.

I close my eyes. I feel the dirt under my paws. I try to imagine my hands turning into paws, listen to the wind, the frogs in the backround- then an image pops into my head. Its a wolf, a she-wolf, with a beautiful creamy brown/red dappeled pelt, with a whiteish  cream underside. Shes in a field, right on the border of a forest, and shes looking at the woods. She looks at me with these beautiful eyes, her tounge sticking out like shes smiling and laughing. She swings her head towards the woods, like, come on!

Then my mom came to the door and I got up and let my dog in before she asked or anything, but I was so happy to at least see her and know what she looks like. Thats all for today!

*Note! This did not just start today. Ive spend years feeling this way and showing hints of being a therian. I have identified as a therian and had shifts previous to this. Just to clear up any confusion this did not happen over the cource of a day.