Ok, I know I don't usually do this, but I really need to let some stuff out so here's a random vent, because I am so fuc*ing pissed at humanity right now. I don't even know where to start. Lets start with humans.
F-ing humans!!! They ruin everything! They deservie to f-ing die, all of them, even me!! We ruin the planet, we kill off species- our beloved Earth has survived for millions of years and in the small amt of time we have been here, we have managed to KILL it!! How F-ing messed up is that?? We would have been PERFECT staying as monkeys!! Monkeys are amazing!! We didnt need to evolve! IT FUDGING SUCKS! AND I HATE IT!! AND I CANT DO ANYTHING BC IM A 14 YEAR OLD!!! AND NOBODY IN MY FAMILY GETS IT!!! *Screams of rage* Only my alterhuman friends get it. they see the truth. So thank you to them.
Another AGGRIVATING thing is the humans I live with. They dont get it. They dont get anything. They stomp around like they own the world. This morning I was in my bedroom. My room is under the rest of the house, so every little noise, I hear. Not like I dont already. I hear things most people dont. I see what they overlook. Because unlike them, I find it important. I am prepared. I like to see the best in people, but no. Anyways, i wake up, and i hear them STOMPING AROUND, and I think, WHY IN THE HELL DO THEY WALK THAT LOUDLY. No survival instinct. I have to constantly put up with my sister and her f-ing bad judgemeent, bad ideas, bad everything. shes such an idiot and i hate it. I live in a pig sty, its suck a f-ing mess, my house. And nobody even cares to clean it. All the double standards are driving me insane. I know I have a good life compared to other people. But sometimes its REALLY HARD TO FEEL GREATFUL.
Speaking of other people, i am really upset at something else. online, im a counceler to a lot of people. one person in particular, she needs a better life, and i cant help her, and its really hard on me. i could save myself the pain and leave her, but she dosent need that. so i swallow any doubts and keep going. all the pain i feel at doing this stuff, i can never express irl or my parents will find out what i do online and it will all be taken away. what i do is only wrong in their eyes, but it should be ok!! its hard. its really hard.
And this longing, for the forest, for a life I can never have.. its overwhelming. just standing in the forest, its so beautiful, so much pain because i will never, ever be able to be happy. to live how i want. so i have to do the best i can, and live with that pain.
thank you
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Journal Of A Therian.
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