Journal Of A Therian.

Nighttime Thoughts - 8/17

So, as you might know, I have sleep problems, and have to take meletonin to help me go to sleep at night. I took two last night, wanting to sleep all night and be done with it. That failed horrendously.

After crashing hard, I woke up for like two hours because my dad came in, and then finally got back to sleep. Then 3o clock came around, and I knew I would be up for the remainder of the night.

At around four, I got some trippy claw shifts, never had those before. It was loca. It also made me super upset I couldn't claw anything, and I had just trimmed my nails, and it was really frustrating.

Another super frustrating thing was that I was so awake, but I couldn't do anything! Then when morning came, I was tired and un-motivated again. I wish I could be nocturnal, go to sleep, wake up at 12, do shit and then go to sleep again. Ik its not nocturnal, but that's how my sleep schedule wants to work. Or like, sleep in the afternoon, wake up, go to bed in the early morning, wake up, then go to sleep again. And especially now that im sharing a room with someone, I cant turn on the light and draw or read or anything, and even when I do, I have to stay quiet. I cant wait till I move out into my own little cottage and can do that. I would be so much more productive.

Speaking of being productive, the day prior to this, I saw some pictures of moss and bones in a lil glass jar, and took inspiration. I got out the few smol cork lidded bottes I had, and my mini crystal bottles, went onto the deck and got to work. In the end, My sister and I made four of them.