𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑/𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝟐 [𝑫𝑬𝑨𝑵 𝑾𝑰𝑵𝑪𝑯𝑬𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑭𝑨𝑵 𝑭𝑰𝑪]

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I had an alright family, it was obvious that they needed the extra income so that's why they took me but they treated me decent enough. They had two other kids, a girl and a boy, James and Carly but they were such assholes to me, always making sure to remind me that I didn't belong and picking on me whenever their parents weren't around. 

I guess that's why I did so well in school, it was better to be there then at home. I was sixteen when my social worker asked me if I wanted to meet my mom, at first I was ecstatic but then nature stepped in and there had to be bad news. 

It turned out my mom was in an institution for a few years, she had a nervous breakdown awhile back and it has been her address since. 

I was mortified but still a bit curious so I agreed to a meeting as long as my worker never left my sight, she agreed. We went to see her one weekend and according to the doctors it was one of her good days.

 She was speechless when we were introduced, it kinda freaked me out but then she hugged me and just held me at arms length and stared. "You are so beautiful" she had said. We sat down in a big room that was filled with other tables, other people who were there visiting as I was. 

We sat in silence for a few minutes, it was so uncomfortable but it was she who finally broke the silence. .I'm sorry Emma, I wanted to keep you but...it was so scary for me and after what happened I wasn't well and I was considered unfit to care for you but...I...I wish it happened differently" she said and again we sat in silence.

 I didn't know what to say to her, should I tell her its okay? Should I lie and tell her I have a great foster family and that she made a good choice. Part of me wanted to tear her a new one but she was already in hell. 

"You don't have to apologize, I'm doing really well in school and I have a lot of friends, I'm happy" I said but I found it hard to force out the last two things I said. But it sounded like something you say.

 " That's great I'm really glad to hear it" she said. 

We sat quietly again until some other patient was messing around with the tv in the room and he put on some horror movie, something with vampires, I remember because it was a new release that I wanted to see.

 It was strange how my mom just stared at the screen with a look of terror on her face and that when our visit went awry. 

She started yelling at the guy, then at me and she kept saying "don't trust them, its how they get to you and when you think things are okay they jump on you and take everything away.