Deserve One More Chance ✔(Completed)

Destiny

She chuckled. "What's that special in her? Do you find it?" she asked and finished her bottle. 

"I swear, still I couldn't find the answer. But I know one thing......" she glanced at me with raised brows.

"She is definitely not a routine boring person. She never asked me to do this or to do that. She never asked me to change my character. All she did is..... staying with me, no matter whatever the situation was. She loved me the way I was", I finished.

"You loved each other right? From where your girlfriend came between?" she asked and I narrowed my eyes.

"Sorry, not your gf.... I mean that girl.... I forgot the name", she corrected her phrase.

"Leila..... It's a total misunderstanding. She don't know that we are loving each other. Chaitra thought that I was loving Leila and I thought that Chaitra was not loving me."

"Oh wait.... That means you both were not in relationship? You both never expressed yourself to each other?" she asked with wide disbelief eyes. I shook my head.

"But why?" she asked.

"I did a biggest mistake in my life", I said she stared at me with curious eyes.

"I started friendship with her and that's the biggest mistake I ever did. I got attached to her literally addicted to her. And I was too scared to loose her. That's the worst part of loving a best friend, you might loose the things you never wanted to. If only I approached her in other way. Things might be different. But at the same time our friendship is best."

"Yeah...... I know", she mumbled.

"Hah?"

"Nothing", she said adjusting her hair. Fishy. She was hiding something.

"It's the last bottle", she gave. I gladly opened third bottle.

"Can I ask one more question?" she asked opening her bottle. I nodded.

"Do you ever cried for her? I mean, I saw Chaitra crying many times. She used to be a normal person around but when she was alone, she was something else... Like she was burned by her own tears. What you did in those years away from her?"

"Do you ever spent counting each single second of a day?" She shook her head.

"I spent counting each second and filling that mere second with her. That's the most favourite thing I used to do everyday. One year to accept a fake reality, one year to realise own faults and regret and another year to muster courage to face the truth.

Those three years taught me how my life would be without her. It's a pleasureful hell. I used to spent whole day with her thoughts. I used to feel her by my side. That feeling is so fucking good. But after realising she was not with me in real, that feeling is fucking hell. 

I keep things which made me feel her with me. I avoided everything which tried to take her away from me. That includes alcohol. But it took long time for me to realise I was one who took her away from myself.

I never ever shed a single tear in those three years. Because I felt little lite after removing the weight of my tears. And I was scared to forgot her. I didn't want to forgot her and I didn't want to feel lite. So I never let them out and I loved when my heart drenched in my own tears."