Deserve One More Chance ✔(Completed)

Future is always a Surprise

"Varun, I want to talk to you."

I didn't gave any reaction or reply.

"Please", she hold my hand. I nodded.

I had idea about what is she going to say. I had no idea how I have to handle this. I knew one thing that it was the time. 

We left out to garden and sat on the bench under a Tulip tree. It was the first time I scared to talk with Divya.  I was secretly wishing for a smooth end and trying to compose myself. We spent some time in silence. Meanwhile I texted Vishwa and informed about the situation. He just replied 'OK'. I expected some advices. 

"I'm sorry", she broke the silence. "I should not have done that, really sorry Varun."

Tears rolled down from her eyes. I didn't utter a single word. She glanced to ground. I was hating myself for all this. I didn't even know what I have to do now. Tears were falling down drop by drop from edge of her jaw line. If I say anything, it will break her. But sitting like a rock was useless.

"It's ok Divya. There is no need of apology. Don't feel yourself guilty", I turned her face towards me and wiped her tears. She refused to look into my eyes.

"If I say I can understand you, it is a lie. I couldn't understand you. I can understand your feeling, but I can't understand what you are going through. I am sorry for that. I think we have to stop everything", finally I confessed. 

She might expected that from me. She didn't gave any reply, glanced back to ground. Her flow of tears increased. I leaned front by placing my elbows on knees and started playing with my mobile nervously. All the situation was calm and tensing. I didn't have words to talk.

"Don't say like that. I did that just because to show how much I love you, that's it. I didn't mean to pressurize you. Take some more time, I mean as much as time you want but think about me please."

"No Divya. It's better for us to stop here.I know how much you love me. But you will never get that love from me. I always wish best for you. You deserve everything best in your life. You never get that best love from me. I am not loving you. I won't love you."

"You know what, when we met first time, I didn't know that I will love you this much. We never know, when we fall in love. So don't fix that you won't love me. We don't know what's waiting for us in future. Future is always a Surprise. All these days you never tried to love me or even understand my feelings. I am keeping all my self respect aside and shamelessly asking.........", she gasped "please try to understand me..... my feelings."

Her words shattered my heart. I made her to come down to that level. I ashamed of myself. I didn't do anything but guilty clouds me. I wasn't loving her. I had to made it clear so early. I delayed it. All this long I thought that she would hurt. But now she hurt more. More deeper I went more darker it became. I won't delay it more. 

"Divya, please try to understand me. We have to stop it here.  The later you get, the more you will suffer. I don't want to hurt you anymore", I said with firm tone. I raised and about to leave. She held my hand

"Why you are not loving me?" tears filled her eyes.

"I can't tell that."

"How can't you tell that? I have right to know the reason."

"No, It's complicated. I can't explain that."

"Why?"

Oh god! How could I explain her, even I didn't have any clarity. 

"I didn't have answer for that." I said with loud voice.

"Ok then, lets find that answers together", she raised into her feet.

"Divya please try to understand."

"I am also saying that only." she replied with raised tone. I wasn't in the state to argue with her.

"Divya", I huffed

"Ok Varun, get back to old days?", she asked. I wished to go back to that days as friends so many times. But I didn't want to go back. I knew it won't happen.

"No. It won't happen"

"At-least do that for me. I ain't ready to loose your friendship."

Is she emotionally blackmailing me? or Did I became selfish? I through my head back and stared at sky. 

"Okay" I accepted. I again did the same mistake. This time knowing everything, I did it. I will definitely stand in the same position again, but situations will became more sensitive and painful. I wished that she also understood.

I left to block for my batch. On the way I called Vishwa to know where he was. He said everyone left and he was waiting for me in cafeteria. I asked him to order some food. I was very hungry.

I entered into cafeteria and searched for Vishwa. There I saw her. She wore a grey coloured kurthi and tied her hair into pony tail. We wore same colours. I took it as positive sign and headed towards her. My heart rate increased with my steps. 

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I liked Kiran's idea about listing the details. I was in my room. Meera went to her friend in another room. I wrote everything I knew about him. I will conduct the entrance exam. It was crazy, but I like it. I didn't know about the destiny. If it really destiny, it will happen for sure. So I won't deny it. I will follow my heart. Next time I will face him.

'I will talk to him. I will make him my friend. I will know about him. I will spell him. I will become Sherlock Holmes and dig his dark secret past.'  All these creepy ideas popped in my brain. I became a fairy tail witch who spells hero and try to kill him. What if Savi and Kiran learnt about my idea. I don't know about Savi, but Kiran will join with me. If Rom learnt, he will save him like heroine. And at-last they will ended together. Very funny. My brain cooked all these funny ideas. I laughed on myself for my own crazy ideas.

It's been 2 weeks, I didn't see him anywhere. Kiran said they were having their semester exams. He might be busy in his preparations and all. I was in cafeteria with Kiran. It was lunch time but still less crowded. Seniors had exams, so they were irregular to college. Kiran went to counter to collect our sandwiches. Everyday I wished to meet him. Days changed very fast, few days back I tried to run away from him but now wishing to meet him. We never know what's waiting for us in future. Future is always a Surprise. I was waiting for the surprise.

"Hi", someone snapped my thoughts. My heart became an athlete. Was I dreaming? No, it was real. Yes it was real. He stood in-front of me. He wore grey coloured shirt and folded his sleeves up to his elbow. We wore same colours.

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Sometimes following your heart is better than fighting with your brain.

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Divya and Chaitra waiting for the future surprise. 

Where will Varun stand in that future?

What's Varun complicated reason to reject Divya? 

Kindly comment. I am glad to read them.

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