Deserve One More Chance ✔(Completed)

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Situations define us. I believe everyone acts according to situations. If anyone behaves selfish, that means that person's life made him to act like that. Being fake, selfishness, self centered, lies, cheating all these are not our choices, our situations forced us to choose them. I think there is no wrong in that. May be the greatest noble people also at-least once in their life went through that situations. 

I saw many people who cheated, faked and acted selfish. I didn't judge they are wrong or bad because they might had their reasons. But I don't believe anyone easily without knowing. I learnt that from my life. I believed one person easily without knowing anything. I didn't know, whatever Chaitra was saying is true or false. I didn't know anything about her, but I knew one thing, she is a pure soul. From the day I saw her for the first time, I drenched in her beautiful smile. I always wandered what's in that smile. I understood what's in her smile that always dragged me. A genuine heartful smile, no lies, no hidden fake emotions. Just a pure innocent and honest smile. But I didn't understand about that mystic eyes, may be it will take some time to understand that.

It had been one month since I returned here. From the past month nothing changed in my life but many things are changing. I could sense that changes, a new routine. After waking up, messaging her is the first thing, daily I used to do. Meeting her at college and walked with her to our respective classes. Few times we had lunch together at cafe. I became lot more comfortable with her. We became very good friends. I felt a very very very old relation with her. I met her friends also. At evenings, sometimes I went to her classroom. If that class ended, I sat with her and her friends for little time. After that we walked to her dorm. If that class not ended, I waited in corridor outside her class. She came out with a random excuse. 

Every new day I found new things about her. She is not that easy to understand. One day I felt that she was a very sweet person, another day I strike off that sweet and wrote crazy and that next day another new statement. Either she was sweet or crazy, innocent or smart, good or bad  it didn't make any difference to me. So, I stopped defining her. For me it didn't matter how she is? or what she is? She was just real. She spoke what she felt? even it is hard. And I liked it a lot. 

From past 2 weeks she became very busy because of her semester exams. I also stopped continuous chatting with her. I didn't want to disturb her study and all. Moreover it's her first semester exam, so she was little excited. 

I also drowned in my stuff. My fourth semester started, classes were going slow. Things with Divya changed drastically. We were trying hard to act normal. I didn't like to behave that there was nothing. It was suffocating. Vishwa supported her but never forced me. He understood my feelings. It's very hard for him. I sensed his suffering. My batch also didn't involve in this. They learnt what happened between us. They said I took a wrong decision. They supported Divya. But they knew nothing about my feelings. I didn't say anything about Chaitra. I decided to keep it to myself until I become sure. Vishwa also felt it was correct. 

My days were looking very simple outside.  But deep inside, it was very disturbing. No one could understand emotional turmoil. Chaitra was the only person who dragged me out of my emotional pool every time. She had to do nothing. Just her presence makes everything perfect for me. I didn't want to deny anything about my feelings. I wanted to take time because I saw many sad endings which were started with great feelings.  

I wanted to impress her, I wanted to become a favourite person to her. And I didn't want to lie or fake to impress. Sometimes I afraid, was I becoming possessive on her? Chaitra and I had lot of differences. We had very little common preferences. Like 80% different and 20% common. We were quite opposite to each other. In-spite of all this, I loved the time with her. I thought she also. All this difference made no sense. Till now, I didn't struck in any situation, where I had to lie to impress her. I wished that situations won't come.