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like i want you | iwaizumi hajime

plot: inspired by the song like i want you by giveon so angst to fluff
word count: 1819
pronouns used: they/them
warnings: toxic ex mentions, alcohol mentions, insecurity mentions, slight blood warning but no violence

He had to pretend everyday that you weren't on his mind anymore. No matter how many times he'd lie to himself, the fact boiled inside him that you were gone. Iwaizumi sat alone at his desk looking onto his notes, studying for his upcoming exam. He was distracted, his mind could not focus on anything as tears fell on the pages. His chest ached as the memory of you leaving replayed in his head.

"There you go being all climgy and insecure again! Why can't you just let me fucking live!" Iwaizumi yelled.

"You lied to me," You uttered. You voiced was soft, cracking as you spoke. Your hands shaking, finding themselves clutching your shirt. That's when you snapped. "You lied to me!"

Iwaizumi took a step back, realizing his mistake. His fuming rage had halted for a moment after seeing your then outgoing tone turn angry. Never in your relationship had you raised your voice at him. Not once, not even in an argument, only he ever did. "I didn't lie," Iwa pointed out.

"Yes you did!" Your knuckles grew white as you looked at your boyfriend. "You promised me that you wouldn't turn out like him. You're lying about where you are, forgetting dates, and now you're just not there for me! I'm patient with you and-- you turned out exactly like him!"

"You picture me as that monster? Don't compare me to him!" He defends, walking towards you.

You take a step back in fear remembering your ex-boyfriend's voice echoing in your ears. You crouch down as the insecurities began to fill within you again. "Y/n, I-" Iwaizumi reaches out to touch you but you watch his hand away.

You two sat there in silence, for six minutes. Six minutes before you stood up, took off your promise ring amd walked out of your shared apartment. Six minutes before you decided on who you'd stay with and how you'd move out with. Six minutes before you realized your heart was still tainted from the last holder.

Iwaizumi wiped his eyes and looked up at his computer. Tomorrow was your anniversary, not that it mattered anymore. To him it did, you were his everything and seeing you leave was the worse thing that could've possibly happened.

Even his friends knew his break up caused a huge change with him. His public facade was bullshit when he would tell people he was okay. He would lie and say that the break up was mutual. He'd attend parties and try to flirt with girls but it'd never work. his mind would tell him he's still with you.

"Fuck!" Iwa screamed. He picked up his notebook, throwing it against the wall. He fell to his knees looking at his hands. How could he have forgotten about you those nights? How could he have treated you that way? Frustrated with himself, he let himself sleep off his feelings knowing well enough he hadn't studied for the exam for tomorrow.

The next day, dragging himself the class through the exam, he arrived home to lay on the couch. His day couldn't have gotten worse. Traffic driving him mad, his professor's exam being excruciatingly hard, and coming home to an empty apartment. He sits up, his eyes landing on the kitchen. He might as well start dinner, right?

It was the one thing he loved to do to get things off his mind, cook. His mind began to drift as he started his dish, letting his thoughts of you disappear in the steam of his mind. It wasn't until he finished his dish and he began to set the table when his mind was clouded.

Why him? Why would anyone have chosen him over his best friend? Why did you walk out? You were the first. The first person to show him what love meant, yet why? He stopped at the drawer by the kitchen door, opening it to reveal the piece of you staring back at him, your promise ring.