𝔻𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝔹𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨 [2] || bellamy b. series

Chapter 8

Slowly, I let go of Bellamy's hand while I watched over the grounder's tents from our camp. Finn was dead. My best friend, someone who I considered as my family just took his final breath right where I was standing.

I was partially mad at myself for not preventing this from happening but I was more upset at us, as people. The death of our people is so common for us, it's like a cycle now. There's someone in need of help and instead of finding solutions we just watch them slowly die in our hands.

Why does this keep happening? Was this just a part of who we are now? Us watching our loved ones dying knowing there were ways to protect them? I was tired of feeling worthless and powerless.

'I'm here if you need anything, okay?' Bellamy whispered while hugging me.

'Thank you.' It was all I said as I hugged him back.

As we were pulling away, I heard footsteps coming towards us. It was Clarke. 'After Raven's done grieving, they're taking Finn's body. Justice wasn't served so they need it for the truce to be complete.'

The way she seemed unbothered about killing Finn hurt me, 'Why are you acting like this, Clarke?'

'I had to do what I have to do. I don't care if you or Raven are mad at me. We have to keep moving forward.'

'I'm not mad at you for killing Finn. I know that you did it so he doesn't have to suffer but you loved him too. It's okay to mourn.'

'We're leaving in the morning to take his body. It's your choice if you want to join or not.' She walked away into the Alpha Station.

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Walking next to Raven, we were on our way to Tondc. Clarke and Bellamy were hiking together, holding a serious conversation but I heard everything; Bellamy wanted to be the inside man for Mount Weather.

It was a great plan to have someone to sneak in to see what's really going on with our friends. Even though it hurt me that he didn't come to talk to me, it pained me more that he was going on a dangerous mission.

I've lost my best friend and I couldn't bare to see anyone else getting hurt. My heart wouldn't be able to take it if something happened to Bellamy.

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Night rolled by and we all stopped to camp out for the night. Seeing that everyone went to sleep, I decided to take a walk by myself in the woods. I needed to clear my head, away from everyone.

Quickly, I turned around as I heard someone stepping on a tree branch. Bellamy popped out of nowhere, 'Why are you up?'

'I have a lot on my mind.' I sighed, 'For starters, Raven isn't talking to me and I'm worried.'

'You just need to give her some space. She'll come to you when she's ready.' He was right but it scared me that she didn't want to go through this with me.

'Also, I know that you're trying to go to Mount Weather.'

Bellamy's eyes widen, realizing that I overheard the conversation with Clarke from earlier. 'I just didn't want you to worry.'

'Doesn't matter when I find out, I'll worry either way.' I looked down, a little embarrassed to show my vulnerability to him. 'Promise me you won't get hurt.'

He slightly chuckled, 'I can't promise you that, Reyes.'

I sighed, 'Fine, promise me you'll be careful then.'

'I'll be careful.' He smiled as he wrapped his arms around me. This hug was something I really needed to get me through the night.

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As Lexa gave an eulogy, I held onto my sister's hand. She has been quiet since Finn died and I know that she was hurting more than I was.

Lexa passed the torch onto Clarke, giving her the opportunity to say any last words for Finn.

'yu gonplei ste odon' Clarke spoke her final words as she took the torch and placed it on Finn's body. Raven's grip got harder as the fire got bigger. I stared into the fire then Raven let go of my hand. 'I can't do this.'

She slowly backed away from the fire, 'Raven, do you want to talk?'

'No. I just need time by myself.' She turned and walked away. It pained me to see Raven hurting so much and going through it by herself. All I can do was to respect her wishes.

I felt a light touch on my shoulder, 'I'm sorry, for all of this.'

Marcus apologized as he gave me a light smile. After seeing so many people die, it was even harder for me to hate him. Although it was hard to try to forgive him, I knew I had to at least try to build a relationship with him again.

'It's not your fault.'

'Finn was there for you when no one else was and that includes myself. I can't imagine how much pain you're going through losing your best friend.'

Raven and Finn were the only people who I considered family at the time when I struggled losing my parents. Knowing that Marcus acknowledged that made me loathe myself for hating him all this times

'Y/N, I'm so sorry. Not for only about Finn but for everything. I knew how bad your mother treated you and I left you in the dark when you needed me the most. You have every right to hate me.'

'I don't hate you.' No matter how much I couldn't wrap my head around him leaving me, the reality was he sacrificed his best friend for my safety. Even though he wasn't physically with me through the years of my growth, because of him I was alive and well.

'Do you regret floating my mother?' I didn't know why I asked but I was curious.

His sudden hug gave me a nostalgic feeling. The smell he had was exactly the same as when I was a small girl. 'I miss my best friend but what she did to you was wrong. I don't regret doing what was right to save you.'

Tightly, I hugged him back as I closed my eyes to hide the fact that I was crying. He was more of a parent to me than my actual parents were and I wish I can take back all the years I hated him for caring for me so much. 'Thank you.'

'You're welcome, Monkey.'

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'Lincoln's going to take good care of you.' I addressed as I watched Bellamy get ready to head out to Mount Weather.

'Reyes, don't speak in that tone.' He sighed as he walked towards me.

'In what tone?'

'Your "Bellamy isn't coming back" tone.'

I lightly giggled, 'Sorry, I'm just worried.'

He cupped my cheek with his hand, 'I'll be fine. Like you said, I have Lincoln with me.'

Giving him a fake smile, I tried to act as though everything was fine.

'You and your fake smile, Reyes.'

I rolled my eyes, 'You and your judgement, Blake.'

Bellamy chuckled, then rubbed his thumb against my cheek as he comforted me. 'But seriously, Y/N. Don't worry about me.'

My heart fluttered as he called me by my first name. 'You just called me by my name.'

'I know. Gave me a bitter taste in my mouth.'

Laughing at his joke, I playfully punched him on his arm. 'Way to ruin the moment.'

He laughed, then gave me a passionate kiss. It was different than the first time we kissed back at the dropship. This time it felt genuine; it felt right. As I pulled away, I smiled.

'Ah, so that's how I get a smile from you.'

Lincoln popped his head in as he knocked on Bellamy's door. 'Are you ready?'

He nodded in response, then turned to me to give me a warm, strong hug.

'May we meet again.' I whispered as I hugged him back.