It's All A Bit Risky||Tom Hiddleston x Reader

Chapter 25

A/n: Hello everybody! Today is March 29, 2021. I went to the beach yesterday and went rock climbing (cause the California coast has rocks literally EVERYWHERE) and I was combing back down a huge bolder and I slid and fell. If I hadn't scraped up my hands and pulled the muscle in my leg saving myself, I would have died and you wouldn't have known...that's morbid.

also we're using ben platt because its been 2 years since sing to me instead came out and i feel old

Flashback To After the Break-Up and After Anna Wokes Up

"Hello again, Y/n. I...I know you're mad at me. And you have a right to. But I just wanted to say one more thing. I've been talking to Sebastian and Anna and they're telling me you're isolating yourself. So I know you're going to come back. It may be later. It may be tomorrow. It may be in a few weeks, or months, or even years. But I know you'll come back. You need someone to quiet the voices in your head, so I'll make them talk to me instead. Because everybody needs a friend. I love you. I still do, and I doubt I'll ever stop."

Tom's voice rings into Y/n ear as she sits on her bed, crying softly at his truthful but painful words spoken through her voicemail. He's right.

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Y/n continues banging on the door, desperately ignoring the burning gaze of Tom behind her. "ANNA LET US OUT!"

"Share your feelings first," Anna remarks casually.

"I have a bloody premiere to attend!"

"Great, so get it done faster."

Y/n groans and turns around, sliding down the door. Tom sits down as well. In the dim light from the singular light bulb above their heads, she can make out all the ghostly perfect features of his face. It takes everything in her to not crawl over and kiss him.

"How are you?" Tom finally asks quietly.

"I love being locked in a closet with the last person I want to talk to," Y/n spits, venom dripping from her cold words.

Tom groans and folds his knees up, propping his elbows up on them and pushing his face into his hands. "Stop being so hostile," he whimpers quietly.

"What?!" Y/n gasps, standing up. "You are the one who's trying to block me from following my dreams!"

"I didn't! I made a dumb mistake because I didn't want you to leave me for...for bloody Timothee Chalamet! You're going places, and that's inevitable, but I just didn't want to get left behind!" Tom cries, standing up as well. 

"Are you telling me that you did this because you were jealous of Timothee Chalamet? Because you thought i was going to forget about you or leave you?! Thomas, that's ridiculous!" She scoffs. "There is so much I don't know. I need to go and find myself. I'd much rather be alone while I do so, because I won't find myself tied to someone else," Y/n explains, emotion breaking through the walls she tried so desperately to put up. She chews on her thumb, trying to bite back tears.

"Darling," Tom says, stepping forwards and placing his hands on Y/n's arms. Her skin buzzes with his touch and goosebumps prickle her flesh. "Who said it's true that the growing only happens on your own? They don't know me and you. You don't have to leave if to change is what you need. You can change right next to me! When you're high, I'll take the lows, you can ebb and I can flow, and we'll take it slow. You won't be the only one to change, too. I'm unfinished, I've got so much left to learn. I don't know how this river runs, but I'd like the company through every twist and turn. I don't know who we'll become, and I can't promise it's not written in the stars, but I believe that when it's done we're gonna see that it was better that we grew up together. We'll grow as we go."