𝐛 𝐫 𝐨 𝐤 𝐞 𝐧 || 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑 || 𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰

-still in flashback-

TW || kind of a panic attack, blood

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I need to get help.

But I can't focus on that right now, then more people will get involved and I don't want to hurt anyone else.

I could barely hear my sister's screams but I couldn't deal with anymore hurt right now, I honestly don't even care anymore.

I just need to go to the group, I need them right now, but I would never admit that to them. They can't see me as weak, that's- just no. 

Get it together Clay. 

I run down to the river to get water and kneel down on the river bank. I get my glass bottle from my pack and look down at the water. I took off my mask and saw my reflection.

Look at you Clay, you're disgusting. 

How can you walk around looking and acting like that? 

What is WRONG with you? Everything. 

"Get out of my head, please." 

A wave of anger so inexplicable started rising in me. 

You're worthless, if you had ANY value they would take you, hide you, do everything in their power to do so, but clearly, they didn't do that and you have no value.

Just accept it Clay, haha, it's hopeless.

"No-"

Isn't it amazing how you STILL find a way to love your family, STILL find a way to love, now that's a talent.

You deserve a round of applause for that.

I looked at my hands and they were covered in blood not of my own.

"I- NO WHAT THE- WHAT IS THIS-"

"GET OUT  OF MY HEAD PLEASE" 

I punched the water as a scream escaped my lungs and tears fell down my face, wishing the voice would get out of my head. 

I desperately scrubbed my hands to get the blood off even after getting them wet. It wasn't working. They got even bloodier. I scrambled backward to lean against the bark of the tree, I started mumbling to myself trying to get the blood off, it was useless. 

My body just slumped there, no more tears fell, for there were too many thoughts muddling my mind, I had no more tears left to cry regardless. 

Leaves crunch behind me. 

Quickly putting on my mask I whip my head around to see someone with a bow in hand standing above me. 

"Dream?" 

She lowers the bow at the sight of me.

Y/n.

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Y/n pov

"George I'm gonna go get wood, we're running out anyways."

He turned around from the crafting table and nodded in agreement.

"Well don't take long, I think Dream is coming today then we can, I don't know, go hunting or something."

Someone comes through the water into the room.