Eyes On You

XV

Jungkook's POV

It's been days and I couldn't do anything about what was going on between me and y/n.

I just couldn't come up and with a solution and with my open eyes I could see us drifting apart.

I walked into college everyday feeling frustrated about my current situation plus the teachers and assignments were not helping much either. Just increasing my burden.

I wanted to just go upto her, hug her and apologize to her. But what I did was seriously wrong.

I myself wouldn't have forgiven anyone who would stalk me like that and this is y/n we're talking about. I don't think she would even want to look at me.

Having this in mind I changed my seat in class but it hurt. Staying this apart hurt like hell.

I was fine earlier cause anyway we weren't close but now that we're friends, I just couldn't bear her absence in my life.

Everything in the diary was about her, so I thought that it would be best that she had it with herself.

Would she have thrown it away by now? Or like burnt it or flushed it or something out of anger?

My year's efforts. I sighed.

I don't deserve to have it back though. I did interfere way too much in her life as well as her personal space.

Should I write a letter to her and apologize? What if she snaps at me and says that that's what I know, to write.
Noooo. Idea dropped.

Should I just directly go and say it to her face ? What if she slaps me right across the face Infront of everyone?
Idea dropped.

Should I text her? She'd think I'm inconsiderate.
Idea dropped.

Should I call her? Would she answer? What if I say something wrong? I won't be able to see her expressions so if she snaps at me I'd totally not be able to form words or stutter.
Idea dropped.

Ughh!!

What do I do? I just don't get it?
I have no idea.

I am in a situation where I know her completely but don't know her at all. I need to know a different side of her's to figure out what she has on her mind.

I was lying on my bed running my fingers through my hair, groaning and sighing due to my failure of actually figuring out something.

I don't even have my diary to write and pass time. I had grown so damn used to it that now feel empty.

College is shitty to be honest. I go there just to complete my studies and y/n.

Oh no y/n again!!

I ruffled my hair harshly before getting up and walked towards the kitchen to get something to eat.

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By the end of the college I was getting this feeling that something unusual is going to happen.

I packed my stuff and was about to leave when I received a text. I opened my phone to check and it was from y/n.

It took me 2 minutes to process the situation. Why did she text me? Should I check? She texted me first?

I felt my fingers shaking but at the end I did click on the notification to open the message.

If you trust me then meet me at the gate.

The gate? The college gate? It was surely about clearing the tension between us. I was getting more and more anxious each second passing.

I walked out of the building and saw her standing by the gate.

I slowly walked towards her and stood beside her. She looked at me and turned on her heels and started walking.

She looked back over her shoulder indicating that I should follow her. I didn't question anything and just blindly followed her.

She was walking at medium pace and I just followed behind totally unaware of what she had on mind.

She received a call mid way. At first she didn't bother to check but when the person tried a second time, she checked the caller ID and declined the call. Totally showing the other person that she's not interested in talking at the moment.

The streets started to feel familiar but I still couldn't make out the destination. I was looking around at the familiar houses and shops.

I saw the pet cafe while walking which I visited often. The dogs there were really attached to me since they had seen me alot of times.

All those times I felt lonely I ran to this cafe to find an escape. The people that worked there were nice too. They were of a really friendly and accepting nature and treated me like family.

I totally forgot about y/n and the situation thinking about the cafe and my cute family there.

When I came back to my senses I realized that we had already reached there.