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19. It was inevitable

Heyy okay so this was a bit later than I initially thought it'd take. I think this is one of the chapters everyone has been waiting for. So hopefully it meets your expectations.

I'm at uni now, so I'm in that phase trying to make friends and master the campus map hahaah.

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Chapter 19

It was inevitable

Alex's POV

For the last few days I've been focused on classes. I was actually doing the work and handing things in on time.

Both Amelia and me had been doing so much of our own things we haven't had much time for each other. It has taken a toll on our relationship as reluctant as I was to admit that. I know I was feeling guilty about doubting our relationship a couple weeks ago. But recently I truly have been.

It felt like we were both taking different paths. Away from each other.

She was my first everything, first kiss, first relationship and first love. But she was also a whole lot more than that, she grounded me like an anchor and most importantly she was my best friend.

Amelia was one of the best things that had ever happened to me. I was so lucky to have her.

Unfortunately, something has changed. It didn't feel like it did when we first started going out. The chemistry between us had seemingly fizzled out. We hadn't even kissed or done anything close to being intimate. It felt different and I can't say I liked it very much.

But I could never let her go, she meant too much to me.

I was confused and conflicted.

I didn't really want to think about it to be honest. On that thought I just continued writing notes and reading through my textbook.

I was just on my last few pages of revision when I received a text. I scrambled to find it under all my papers. Finally pulling it out I unlocked my phone.

Amelia.

We need to talk.

I bit my lip, those words never meant anything good, in my experience. I gulped and took a deep breath. I had goosebumps and I was nervous enough though I didn't know what this was about yet.

I carefully replied back.

Sure, come over after dinner x

It'll be fine I told myself, for the extra reassurance. I shook my head out of those type of thoughts and drowned myself in my work. I had to think of the best possible situation. Be positive.

She replied after that with just an Okay, no kiss at the end. I felt like I was just overthinking it, like I was making it a much bigger deal than it was.

Hopefully all this worrying could be all for nothing.

I swivelled around on my seat and surveyed my room. It was pretty clean except for a couple clothes piles, my desk and the bed. I got up and stretched my cramped arms and back. I started off with picking up dirty clothes and putting a mental reminder to do laundry. Then I shoved everything that wasn't necessary on my desk into my bag and piled the rest in the corner. Lastly I made the bed and collapsed on top.

I glanced across at the clock. I had give or take 10 minutes before she would be here. I busied myself with my phone, trying to cross the road safely and switching between multiple social platforms, refreshing them countless times.