Captivated by his Warmth (Luxury Girls 1)

Prologue

I am in our favorite park waiting for Rav. I feel so guilty and bad. I will break up with him and yet I chose our favorite park to be our breakup place. It is because I want him to hate me and this place.

For so long, hindi talaga ako mapakali. And this is my decision. I chatted Rav to meet me here. I was here since 5 am. I cried when I sat on the swing thinking this will be the last time Rav and I will go here.

Because after this we will not be together anymore. It is already 7 am when he arrived. Hindi talaga siya nalilate that is why I came here early so he would not notice my eyes. I just hope he will not notice it.

Bumaba siya sa car and pumunta sa akin. He asked me for a hug by his gestures and actions, so I ran into his arms and hug him. Naiisip ko na huli na to na sana baka pwede, tumigil muna ang oras at para mayakap ko lang siya. Pero impossible iyon. I know that.

Humiwalay din ako sa yakap namin at umupo na pabalik sa swing. Umupo din siya sa katabing swing ko.

"Did you have breakfast already? Why do you want us to meet here?" Pagsisimula ni Rav sa usapan namin.

"I just drank coffee how about you? "

"I went here right after I woke up,  I texted you that I went home late last night  since we have important matters sa office."

"Okay". I answered pretending not to care where in fact I am so mad at myself since I wanted to meet early and did not consider the fact that he was tired. "I will not beat around the bush Rav, I expected this to happe--n a-anyway, but I a-am sorry I'm breaking up with y-you"

He did not answer nakayuko ako and I feel like tinitignan niya ako. That is why I looked at his eyes and said "Hindi mo ba ako narinig? I am breaking up with you"

"That is such a quick decision Chanel, Did I do something wrong tell me what did I do? Was it because I am too busy sa work?" He said but I am feeling his nervousness as he speaks.

"Yes, that is one Rav you have no time for me and actually I hate to say this, but I want to be honest I cheated on you with my ex Rav I realize I love him more than you". I said and I hope he does not notice I am lying to him. It is true that I cheated though but I do not love my ex anymore Rav is the one I love, and I am doing this for him.

"I do not believe you. Do not make up some lies Cha, I know you hate cheating so bad that is why you will never try to do it."

"But I have already done it Rav I am sorry. I feel so bad you do not deserve me. If you do not want to believe I will call Ed since he is just in his car watching us"

I called Ed immediately and he went to us. Yes, this is my plan I asked Ed to come here so Rav will believe me. Thankfully, he is here already since this guy is always late.

"I am sorry Rav I am inlove with Ed again that I am willing to forget all the things he have done I hope you understand" I bravely said to Rav while holding the hand of Ed it hurts me inside as I saw my Rav's teary eyes.

"I still do not believe you C-cha wala akong maisip na dahilan para lokohin mo ako at bumalik sa kanya; you despise him so much tapos biglang ganito na you cheated on m-me?" He said this time I can sense his anger.

"I told you Rav, you were always busy with work, to add I feel guilty that you chose me over the opportunity you may have abroad, and Ed explained to me what happened before that it was just all for their company, nung nalaman ko yung reason I just find myself loving him again and kissing him like this" I kissed Ed so that Rav will believe me more. Ed held my waist, and I faked a moan.

I let go of the kiss then I added "I am sorry Rav I know I told you before that I do not care for money but I care for ambitions and goals I do not want a man who will neglect the opportunity to became successful and clearly Ed is not like that even though he hurted me I am amaze for he prioritize their company first, hindi mo man lang ba naisip na ako ang mahihirapan at maguiguilty kapag may nasayang ? I want the best for you Rav you are so good to me"

"O-ookay okay that is enough Cha, if that is what you w-want we're dd-dne, I do not want this but ayoko naman ipilit, I hope you will be happy" He said. He has his straight face pero alam ko nasasaktan siya.

After that he turned his back on me and the tears I am holding back now fall.

Please lumingon ka Rav, isang lingon mo lang babawiin ko ang mga kasinungalingan ko at buong puso na babalik sayo kahit ipagtabuyan mo ko.

Pero hindi siya lumingon, tuloy tuloy siyang sumakay sa kotse niya. Habang ako naman ay napaupo na lang sa iyak. Inaalo ako ni Ed pero ang sakit eh.

I am believer na kapag mahal mo gagawin mo ang lahat para lang masave ang relationship niyo and yet ako pa itong sumira ng relasyon namin.

Patawad Rav, you are the right one that came from a wrong time and I will always love you but from a far.