Insecure. M.P

Chapter 10

Listen to the song if u want to:)

Y/N pov
I woke up and realized, I FUCKNING SLEEPT WITH MATIA, MATTIA POLIBIO DEFUQ.

Nah oh helllll naw bitch-
What if I was bad
Or he didn't like me
Or like the segges

I turned around and see him sleeping in my own bed. I looked at him or more starring at him.

I never really realized how beautiful he was. His brown eyes,his fluffy hair, his pink perfect lips-

Mattia
"Y/N yk you can just take a picture"
He said while having the biggest smirk EVER.

And of course my cheeks starter to turn tomato.

Ring ring ring

I looked at my phone, it was a call from the hospital, fuckkkk.

I grabbed my phone and got up from the bed, and that's when I realized. IM NAKED...

I just stood there a god amount of 3 min and then turned around to face Mattia.

And let me tell you he was staring like, up and down.

I didn't say anything, I just grabbed my phone and ran to the bathroom.

Mattias POV:
I woke up because it felt somone staring at me. My eyes were still closed because I was tired asf from yesterday.

Y/N was good not gonna lie.

I opened my eyes but slowly, and see how she is staring at me.

Mattia
"Y/N yk you can just take a picture"

I looked at how embarrassed she got after I said that.
Her cheeks literally turned to tomatoes.

Ring ring ring

Her phone was ringing I wonder who it is-

I didn't even think clear, before she got up from the bed.

And wow her body, I didn't realize how curvy,thick and perfect her body was. It was perfect, but covered in bruises and scars.

And when I saw that, my heart broke in pieces.
Why
Why would somone want to hurt her like that...

After being lost in my thoughts, I just saw how fast y/n turned around and ran to her bathroom.

I chuckled.

I herd some noises and talking coming from the bathroom.

I then see how y/n walk out of the bathroom, she looked scared and terrified. I could see how close she was at crying because her eyes were so glossy. And they looked so broken.

She got up to me and said to me in a soft but cracking voice
"Get out, of my house NOW"

I didn't say anything, I just got up and left.

She didn't mean anything to me right?
She was just another girl I fucked, right?
BUT why dose it feel like I need to se her, feel her, cheek up on her.

What have Y/n done to me..

Y/N POV:
Yeah ik I shouldn't have kicked out Mattia, but.

My dad is out from the coma...
and ik for sure this night is going to be a living hell...

I felt like I needed to die.
No one
No one wants me here
My dad hates me
I hate myself
The whole school hates me.

I looked at myself in my bathroom mirror...

I found a pice of glass in my drawer... i picked it up and looked at it. I shouldn't be doing this. But I need it, I dragged the glass across my arm...

I draw paintings on my skin....
Strokes of red, red that burns in the shower, I tell myself to stop.
But I miss the beautiful canvas I draw across my arms and thighs, once they fade I wish I could stop.
But I love it to much.

I just looked at myself.... and started to talk to myself

You did it again didn't you?
You lost yourself again?
You cut yourself?
You cry for help in silence?

I'm really tired and I have been it for i while now. My eyes were covered in water.

And that's when I hear the front door bust open.

I didn't do anything, because i know who it is...

And i know what he is gonna do.

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