30 Rainy Days

Tenth

Tenth

That night, he left while carrying heavy emotions with him. I can still remember how a sad smile appeared in his face before he turned his back at me without saying a word. I can still feel how heavy and confused I am as I watch their van leave 'til my eyes can't reach it anymore.

That night, the least that I can do to make him feel better is to call him while he's on his way to his destination...

We didn't really talk during that call, it's just pure starings as we let the silence to rule the moment. Well, I actually don't know what to tell him, I just thought that maybe my presence will be enough to atleast lift his mood up.

The ambience remained unclear and so is the sadness in his eyes and still, I remained unknowledgeable about the reasons behind it. He totally left without giving me clear answers and explanations.

"P'Nine!! Did you hear me?" I went back from thinking so deep when Patrick snapped his fingers in front of me.

Days and I'm still here, thinking of the possible reason for those tears!! Joong, why did you leave me without explaining anything?! Now my brain was left hanging, how am I suppose to function properly and do my things peacefullt every single day?!

"Hah?" I asked confusely and he sighed.

"This is an exact example of someone missing someone.. tsk, tsk, tsk,.. you're getting worst phi" he commented instead of answering me directly that made me shook my head.

"I'm just hungry, look at the time. It's already past lunch and we're still not having our break" I denied and I think it worked to atleast avoid his teasings.

"The enrolment period will start next week. I think you should enroll early to avoid hassles. Pass your renewal request for your scholarship also so you can be sure that your name will be on their list"

Really? Is that how near we are to the next schoolyear period? It's fastly approaching, I can immediately feel the stress because of that news.

"Yeah sure, I'll ask Joong too. He's planning to study in our school so I guess we'll just go and enroll together when he came back from his vacation" I casually answered as I help him finish the scoopings, mind totally flying in pure stress.

"See how tables are suddenly turning? It's now you who's tagging him to go somewhere and do something together. I feel like a successful cupid!!" He proudly stated which I gave a laugh.

"You're creating things again" I murmured before I rethink it. Patrick's words just put me back to the situation of getting confused in analyzing things about myself and how I'm recently acting up.

Successful cupid? We can't tell. Let's see if things will really end like what I planned or things will totally end unexpectedly and out of plan.

Right now, all I know is that I don't feel the need to get rid of Joong anymore like how I wanted things to happen in my original plan. I don't know how things fastly changed like that. I mean, just a few months?! What's with the sudden turn?

"But you can't deny the changes in you as it's clearly showing. You have to thank me once you're finally official"

"I'm not denying and yeah sure.. if that will ever happen.."

And if you're going to ask me how I feel about Joong right now? I don't have a word to answer that. Honestly, I feel good when I'm with him, I feel a bit incomplete when he's out, and I feel sad when he's feeling bad.