Someday

Between Love and Hate

Being without the guys wasn't as bad as I thought. It was worse. I found myself doing the most dull and tedious things with them gone; Cleaning the apartment, shopping for groceries, bringing home things from work, et cetera- finding something to occupy my mind until Fab or the rest of the guys call. But lately his conversations have been short... Maybe he's getting tired of me? The others called a lot more often and told me about the tour. It's been like this three weeks now, but maybe I'm thinking into it too much. Maybe I should go to the gym to get my mind off things. Besides, if something was wrong, Juliet said she'd call or text me.

I dressed out into my sweats and a coca-cola shirt that Fab got me and a thick coat before leaving the apartment. After walking two blocks, I finally made it to the gym. I went straight to the treadmill and set the speed up for me to warm up with fast walk. As I warmed up, I watched the flat screen tv above but soon lost interest as I saw that it was just celebrity gossip. I set the speed up higher running full speed. I had no clue how out of shape I was until I began breathing heavily. As I turned off the machine something of the tv caught my eye.

"Looks like Drew Barrymore has a new beau. She was last seen in Scotland, where she was filming her latest movie, with none other than Fabrizio Moretti- drummer of the newly famous band, The Strokes." The host said.

There was a picture of them with his arm around her waist as they walked out from a show and another of them kissing. As I saw that, I pinched myself to make sure that this wasn't some nightmare.

When I felt the pain in my shoulder telling me that this was reality, I felt my tears spilling over and quickly left the gym. I ran until I got to the small park, halfway from my apartment, and sat on a bench. I held my face in my hands as I began sobbing. I can't believe no one told me the truth. All those times the guys called, they never mentioned anything. Juliet never called to tell me anything. Have I been forgotten? Have I been replaced? I sobbed harder until I felt my phone vibrate. I looked down to see that it was Fab. Feeling angry, I chucked my phone as far as I could.

"Ow!" Someone exclaimed.

I was too upset to care whether or not that person was okay or not and just sat there in my self pity.

"Um, I think this is yours." A male's voice said.

I looked up and saw a tall dark and handsome man with a kind of attractive but crooked smile with a strong jawline and warm chocolate brown eyes who was holding my cellphone out to me that now had a cracked screen.

"Oh shit, I'm sorry. Are you okay?" He asked seeing my puffy red eyes and probably black mascara trails on my cheeks.

"I'm fine. Sorry about the phone..." I trailed off.

"Wesley. And no problem. So... What's your name?" He said handing me the phone in my hand.

"Y/n." I replied softly.

"Y/n..." He repeated as though it were some euphoric word.

"I like it." He smiled widely with his charming smile and I laughed lightly at him.

"You have a very cute laugh." Wesley said," But are you sure you're okay? I know we just met, but I hate seeing pretty girls cry." 

If this were any other random person I would freak out. But Wesley seemed so genuine and sweet.

"Well it all started when..." I began telling him everything from the day I moved here to what happened today, leaving out personal information of course and he listened intently.

When I was done he was silent for a minute before speaking.

"I'm so sorry, that must be tough. And none if your friends told you anything?" He asked and I nodded wiping off a few fresh tears.

We were quiet for just a minute in comfortable silence before he asked: "Can I see your phone?"

"Why?" I asked a little suspiciously.

"Don't worry I'm not going to snoop through it, I'm giving you my number." He said and I gave him my phone.

As I did, he quickly put in his number.

"If you ever have a problem, wanna talk, or just hang out, give me a call okay?" He said patting my knee.

"Okay. Thank you so much for everything." I said hugging him.

"You're welcome. And chin up, everything will work out just fine." He said getting up, ready to leave.

"Do you need someone to walk you home?" He asked, "it's kinda sketchy at night."

"I'm fine, you've done enough. Besides my building is just a block away." I said.

"It's no burden. I'm over that way too." He said.

As we started walking, Wesley told me more about himself. We're into the same music, and share so many interests. Plus we became faster friends than I did with any of the guys.

"Well here's my stop." I said as we got to my building and he laughed.

"What's so funny?" I asked confused.

"I just moved in here a week ago." 

"Sweet! Where from?" I asked.

"California." He replied as we walked into the building.

We headed over to the elevators.

"And I thought South Carolina to New York was a big switch." I said.

"Yeah, I miss the sun and surf but hey I got good job here in New York." He said with a slight laugh.

We stopped at the fifth floor.

"This is me. Nice to meet you Y/n." Wesley said and hugged me before walking to his apartment.

"Bye Wesley." I said as I pressed number seven and in a few minutes I was on my floor. I unlocked the door and went in collapsing on the couch as my mind processed what happened today. After sitting there for lord knows how long I noticed my phone vibrating in my pocket. I took it out and saw Wes :) come onto the screen. As I unlocked it, I saw his text with a billion other texts from the guys and Juliet and a ton of missed calls from them as well. Being pissed off at them, I deleted all their text messages and looked at Wesley's.

Wes:) :It was fun hanging out with you today. We should do it again sometime.

me: I'd love to! Thanks for making my day Wes. I owe ya

Wes :): Calling me Wes already? Just kidding I like my friends calling me that. But you can make it up by going to get lunch with me tomorrow.

me: Sure :) I know it's kinda late but how does 4:30 at Wild Wings sound? I kinda wanna watch the Chargers and Giants game. Hopefully the Chargers will pull through.

Wes :): Wow cute, funny, nice, likes football AND a Chargers fan ? Where have you been all my life?! lol but yeah that sounds good!

I blushed as I read his text and quickly texted back.

me: Cool I'll meet you in the lobby at 4:00 then. We could walk together.

Wes :): That's cool with me! Well I'm gonna go ahead and sleep now or I'll sleep the day away tomorrow. Goodnight Y/n

me: Goodnight Wes

I thought I'd be a lot more upset considering what happened today, but I'm actually okay. I haven't done anything stupid and yeah I loved Fab but I'm not that upset anymore. No matter how angry I was at him I know that deep down I still love Fab. But that doesn't mean I'll ever take him back easily. Today may have started off pretty shitty, but at least one good thing came out if it- Wes.