Worthy of Sin

Fourteen

Sincere 'Sin' Jones || October 1998

I parked in front of Kori's place and looked over at Ant just as I turned the car off.

He asked me to bring him by to see Kori before takin' him to the Police station to turn himself in, and of course I agreed. That was my boy and I didn't mind lookin' out for him in any way I could.

It was just fucked up that he had to go away, and it wasn't no tellin' how long he would be gone. What I did know is, until then, Ro, Marticus and myself would have to shut shit down in Connecticut and continue to get our shit off in state.

Once we got the rest of this shipment off, I'd be out of the game. Ant already knew my intentions because he was easier to talk to, as opposed to Ro.
I saw an end game to this shit. Ant did too. In the long run, there was nothin' to gain from this shit except a bid or a nice stay in a casket.

I wasn't down for neither option, but it was a completely different story for Roscoe. He was addicted to this lifestyle.

"Ain't no money like dope money," He would say, and while there was some truth reignin' in that statement, that wouldn't be enough to keep in this game.

And besides, if I couldn't uphold any other promise I made Zo, I wouldn't fail her on that one.

Shit. I wonder if she still cared enough whether or not I'd get out of this position.

"I'on know how long I'ma be in here, to be honest. I'll call you once I'm ready," I chuckled while I shook my head, dappin' him up in the process of it all. I didn't expect anything less from this nigga, but I didn't blame him. "Aight, man,"

With that, he got out of the car and he started towards the front door. Before he could knock, the door opened.

My heart damn near skipped a beat at the sight of her. She looked so damn good, it didn't make no sense.

I watched as she and Ant exchanged words. He said something that made her chuckle and shake her head. They exchanged a few more words and she nodded before they gave each other a quick hug.

He proceeded into the house and she proceeded down the steps and proceeded toward the direction of her job.

I hurried and grabbed my keys out of the ignition before lockin' my doors and joggin' towards her. "Ayo! Zo, hold up," She whipped her head in my direction and slowed down walkin' and allowed me to catch up to her.

"Oh—Wassup?" I didn't know what to get from her vibe. It wasn't as intense as it was the last time we saw each other. I definitely hate the way we left off, and I couldn't blame her for how she was feelin'. But damn, I missed her like crazy.

Usually, while I was outta state doin' my thing, I couldn't wait to get back home to be laid up wit' her and spendin' time wit' her in any way that I could.

I hated myself for what I did to her. I had to learn the hard way that hurtin' her was only hurtin' me. I couldn't imagine the way she must feel. But I could definitely see it in her eyes that she was still bothered wit' me.

"Shit, just droppin' Ant off to see Kori before I take him to turn himself in. You need a ride?" I asked and she shook her head. "Nah, my job not too far from the house,"

We both stood there in awkward silence and I started to speak, but she beat me to the punch. "Um— I'm-I'm sorry for putting my hands on you the last time we saw each other. As much as you deserved it, it was wrong of me so I apologize," She says and I could tell by her stuttering and lack of eye contact that it was hard for her to even apologize. She must've given that a lot of thought because her pride was a mothafucka'.