Love mechanics FF 2 (Love Again)

Destroying Himself

3rd person POV

Days turned to weeks which turned to a month and here James was sitting on the floor of his room leaned against his bed and staring at the ceiling as he intoxicated himself with a cigarette. He had finally realized that he can't help Mark, he can't save his friend no matter how much he tried as his words were meaningless to the other and he would be shut down just like earlier.

"How long will you keep this up?"

"Why do you keep bothering me?" Mark had asked as he gulped down another can of alcohol and he had drowned many down his throat till now. "This has nothing to do with you." That statement hurt James who had been trying to get his friend back to reality but was failing miserably.

"It has a lot...."

A knock at the door interrupted Jame's words as Mark joyfully got up to open the door and soon another male joined them in the room.

"You should leave now." Mark spoke as he sat down on his bed before looking at his shocked friend with a smirk and said "unless you want to join us?" James frowned, wanting to scold his friend but didn't find it in him to do so, leading him to hiss in frustration before walking out of Mark's dorm room.

One night stands or hook ups, Mark took everything that was offered in order to keep him away from his own messed up thoughts and James could do nothing but try and pursue the boy to not ruin his life over a failed relationship but nothing worked which led the boy himself drowning in a state of depression.

The management student shuffled through his pack of cigarettes only to find it empty. Yes he had sat there smoking for hours on a school day that now there was nothing left for him to inhale. He threw the pack against the wall in frustration and stood up. He paced back and forth in his room to ease his anger. The anger he himself did not know as to whom it was directed at? Was it for Mark who refused to listen? Was it for Vee who initiated all this? or was it for himself who is unable to help his friend? he didn't know.

James just wanted to help Mark who he had seen break down numerous times in just a year that he can't handle to keep witnessing the other's pitiful state. He had seen how the boy would finch over a touch from his own friends and he saw how the other would freeze outside his own dorm room and appeared stoned that they eventually had to ask to get his room changed. James had also seen when his friend would randomly start crying and he along with their other friends just sat there, observing as they waited for the boy to calm down and all those things he had seen haunted him.

The boy stopped his pacing, ran a hand through his hairs that were sticky with sweat, rubbed his face with palms and tried to calm down. He sighed as he walked over to the study table placed opposite to the foot of the bed, grabbed his keys from the table and walked out of the room.

He got inside his car, drove back to the campus that was still filled with students as it was still noon so obviously studies won't stop just because he chose to skip for the day.

'This needs to end.' James thought as the car came to a halt and he stepped out of his car. He walked towards the engineering faculty, a place that he had started to hate over the last few weeks.

The boy still doesn't know what brought him to this dreadful place or where his uncooperative feet were taking him as his friend from the said faculty was still inside his dorm, intoxicated and having a fling with a random stranger but he did not stop to question his limbs because the boy was unconsciously aware of his own intentions and his brain completely accepted the situation when he halted in front of a certain table in the lecture hall he had just stepped into.

"What are you..."

"Come with me." The senior was cut off as James demanded the other to follow him and soon turn around to leave the room.

"Where?" The older asked, stopping the younger male who turned back to eye the other with a furious look but sighs to calm his nerves before replying in a bored tone.

"To see Mark"

"Why?"

"Because he is destroying himself" James finally yelled not caring about the surrounding anymore even if he could feel the stare of all the students in the room that were now directed towards him, he still didn't care and continued in a low voice this time "while you are sitting here chatting about your mediocre life so shut up and follow me."

Vee said nothing as he stood up and looked at his friends in confusion before following behind the junior.

"What do you mean by destroying himself?" He asked as they stopped in front of James' car in the parking area. The other didn't reply as he opened the door and sat on the driver's seat so the senior also silently got into the car.

"Why did you approach him?" James asked, breaking the deafening silence inside the car but the question only confused the other.

"Huh!"

"Why did you approach him after so long? After a long year?"

"I don't know. I just had to."

"He was doing fine. No, he was doing great. Why would you feel the need to ruin that?" That made Vee speechless and words of apology that came to his tongue got stuck behind his lips that refused to part under any circumstance so he stayed quiet, waiting for the other to scold him. James scoffed at the senior as he saw the pathetic expression of the other when he looked to the side, still keeping his eyes on the road but chose to not say anything making the silence resurface.

"Well see for yourself what I mean by destroying himself." James said stopping outside the dorm building.