Love mechanics FF 2 (Love Again)

These Stupid Feelings Again

Mark's POV

My eyes are frozen, they won't break away from the one spot they keep staring at as if someone had glued them to keep my gaze where it had landed first after waking up so I just let them stare at the man sleeping in an awkward position on the study table opposite to my bed. I am still amazed at how he managed to stay seated and fall asleep with his head leaning on the table but that is not my problem, is it? My problem should be why is this man in my room? but I can't even ask that question as I know exactly why and how he ended up in my room.

"I know it's all my fault then why do you keep thinking about me and hurting yourself." I sighed; breaking my gaze away from the sleeping figure as my brain had decided to replay those stupid words.

'It's not like I wish to keep thinking of him' I scoff at my own thought before getting up and walking towards the kitchen to get water and the much needed food that had been forgotten due to all the alcohol.

Walking back into the room with my food I sit on the couch but once again my eyes drift back to stare at him and my mind drift away into it's own thoughts, once again reminding me of yesterday's events.

Everything in my life has collapsed cause of this one person like a chain reaction from dominos and I willing keep rearranging them so he can crash it again, so I can watch them fall again. I don't want to do that anymore but I am still as stupid as before, someone who is willing to rebuild the card house so others can crash it for their fun.

My mind is a mess and my eyes won't stop staring at P'Vee even if all I am trying to do is eat. Why is he messing with me like that? Why won't he leave me alone?

I keep asking question everytime I think about what happened last night but there is still no answer

"Mark, Can we stop hurting now?"

'Can we?' It is not a question I can answer because hurting has become a part of me, separating it is not just as easy. Thinking that I stood up from the couch I was sitting on to get ready for collage, sighing as I take another glance at the sleeping senior. 'Is he not going to leave? how long is he planing to sleep?' I curse myself for caring about him, even if it's for a second.

"P'Vee!" I called out while shacking the older by his shoulder. I know I don't need to do this but I still can't ignore him. "Get up" I said before moving away as he starts to stir awake.

P'Vee sits up while rubbing his eyes before making a confused face as if trying to process his surrounding but soon turns to a shocked one as he lifts his head to look at me.

"We are being late for uni." I said in a monotone before walking away and inside the bathroom, not waiting for any sort of response from the other. As soon as I enter the bathroom and lock the door my body leans against the closed door and my hand clench the shirt around my chest.

'Great, now even talking is too much' I think as I try to calm my flustered heart. I don't want this awkward feeling infact I don't want any of these feeling I have had since that stupid trip, like everything has been rewinded to a year ago.

I sigh; ignoring the rapid pounding of my heart when I was once again reminded of last night 'Drinking is bad for my brain, I must have gone crazy to kiss him' I thought and walked to the sink to wash my face and get ready for university before changing into my uniform and walking back to the door.

'Hopefully he has left' I wish before holding the door nob to turn it open walk out but seriously wishes are not there to be granted as my wishes are never fulfilled.

"Are you ready to leave?" I sighed but still nodded as I heard the question from the senior. "Then come with me I'll drop you off."

I felt my brows frowned involuntarily at his offer, like seriously what is he thinking, why would he even think that is a good idea but for some reason I still end up not mouthing my thought.

"Do you even have your car?" I ask instead as I am sure we walked to my dorm yesterday.

"North left it here for me after they left the bar" he said and I mumbled a little 'oh', sighing again as I looked at P' who is still giving me a questioning more like pleading look as if waiting for me to say yes to his stupid offer.

'This is stupid, this is soo stupid, I am being an idiot again.'

Thoughts clouded my mind as I try so hard to put them into words, to just reject his offer and walk out but it's so hard when there are these stupid feeling in my heart overshadowing every logical thought I have.

"Okay" I Walk past him towards the door watching a smile lit up on P'Vee's face before turning and walking out of the room.

'I really am stupid'