Lᴀsᴛ Wɪsʜᴇs ♥︎𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑢𝑛𝑔♥︎

want to be with you

Jisungs POV

I woke from my dream and took a shower, I headed towards our kitchen, I made breakfast for myself and gave food to three cats. I smiled looking at them, they are the most precious, well our babies that my husband cherishes most and loves the most.

I sat at a dining table and started eating my breakfast, I made a scrambled egg and bacon and had a glass of milk. I looked at the chair in front of me, where my husband always settled, just to look at me, he is not here now.. he is busy doing his work, he is taking his father's company so he has to work hard, .. lee Minho, my husband

We got married about one and half a year ago, no I'm not that old, I'm just 23 and he is 25. We got married soon because, when my parents found out I'm gay they disowned me.. .. how can parents do to their only child right?? Well, my parents did. After that, I have only Minho beside me, I had two choices to live with my boyfriend Minho or live alone suffering, he wouldn't let me suffer coz he's rich, he was so protective and possessive back then, his parents accepted me and I lived with them just like my second family. After that minho graduated and took his position as CEO in his parent's company so we moved to another well-designed home and got married coz my mother-in-law wants a baby.. who doesn't want a second squirrel right? That's funny

We were excited, we were so happy, we always take time to spend with each other even he had so much work, we always had, I also have a flower shop that I like most to do. We were a lovey-dovey couple that my friends always say "ew" coz of our PDA

I smiled remembering those moments, we all were happy. I met Minho in high school and I fell in love with him, would say I was head over heels for him, he was the same even though he had every girl and boy around him, he fell in love with me.

After we got married after one year, I met my ex-boyfriend, who was so addicted to me back then, I was in love with him too, I guess, but his love was never the same, he was possessive like a lot, he beats me if I went with my friends or even talk with anyone, that's when Minho enters and my life changed.... Not again after my marriage, I was walking to the home closing my shop, I was tired so I just went to drink and after that, I met my ex again and... I don't know how but I was in his bedroom when I woke up the next day, I was scared, I was sorry for Minho, I cheated on him... But I thought if he wouldn't know then I will be okay... But I was wrong my ex already had sent him our photos I didn't even know when did he picture us even he sent it to all my friends that fought for me to get out of him, I loved Minho so much I was so scared that he will leave me... But he didn't... and that's when our relationship goes downhill and my friends never called me.

I know how Minho felt, I know, he didn't sleep that night, I know he cried alone, I was listening to his every cry, I was listening to his every heart pieces breaking and falling... I heard him breaking

I couldn't say anything, it was all my fault that I broke him, I'm not the right person who deserve forgiveness, how could I when I broke my loved ones heart, he trusted me and I broke his trust.

My phone ring and I snapped out of my thoughts, I didn't know I cried..

I answered the call

"Hello?"

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"Okay.... "

I ended it.

I forgot, I have an appointment at the hospital today.

I went to the hospital knowing what has to come, after about two hours I came back to my flower shop but I felt like closing it soon, so I did and went to home. I had baked some cookies yesterday, I brought them and a juice and got comfortable on the couch, turning on the TV and watch random shows. I didn't know when but I slept.

I woke up when the door opened making a voice, it's Minho, I looked at him rubbing my eyes, he didn't look at me

"I'm home," he said in a low voice but could be hear

I saw my phone and it's 9 pm,

"What..!" I slept too much, I forgot to make dinner

"Sorry, I slept too much, are you hungry? I make you some food in 15 minutes" I said and stood up walking towards the kitchen

"I had my dinner, don't bother"

I sighed that's how it is going, after that night and that morning, it's been 6 months already... We spent just like this he came late and woke up early to work, we didn't even talk

I made myself ramen and got my medicines and went to sleep. Just to see him sleeping in his working suit, "he must be so tired" I smiled, hearing his breathing, I laid beside him, making my back facing his back. I can't look at him, I always felt guilty.

He is with me even after that incident, he is still with me, even if he doesn't love me, anyone could leave the person if he cheats on you, but he didn't, he knows I have nowhere to go,....

And how shameless I'm, I even don't want to leave him, how bad person I'm, I still showing him my face, how evil I'm that I'm still hoping for his love,... I have no choice ....

I want to be shameless

I want to be evil

I want to be a bad person

I want to be loved again...

"Till I breath"