Lᴀsᴛ Wɪsʜᴇs ♥︎𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑢𝑛𝑔♥︎

pain

No one's POV

Minho woke up early but didn't found jisung beside him, he got ready for his work and led the way towards the kitchen to grab something, he found jisung peacefully sleeping on his chair, head rested on the dining table, and last night's food was still there, untouched not even jisung ate his food

He felt bad, he wants to hold him, he wants to eat with him just like they did in the past. But whenever he looks at jisung, he remembers that night when he was scared, when jisung didn't come home that night, he was afraid of losing jisung, he looked everywhere, he informed his friends, but what they got in the morning was jisung on his ex-boyfriend's bed, his photo, that was something Minho felt he never gonna love someone again, he felt the pain that Never gonna left, he never trusted anyone besides his friends, he never opened about his feelings rather than his friends, but when a bubbly, cute, always smiling, squirrel boy came to his life, his life changed, jisung was a light to his dark world and he felt very happy, just like he achieved his goal to find a source to live, ...... But why did he have to break that trust, why did he have to break him? Why? It still hurts him looking at jisung, he hates him, but more he still loves him. He just wants to see jisung happy, he wants to say 'go to him if you still love him more than me' but he couldn't, he is afraid of losing him, he was scared to be alone, he can't live without jisung but he was afraid to trust, and love again

He grabbed an apple and went to his car, driving to his company.

He entered his companies entrance and everyone bowed, he straightly walked towards his office and sat there, he works hard for his company, he never let his work affect by anything but now he could do something

His secretary came "hello sir!" She bowed "this is your files and you have meeting at 2 pm and one meeting at the near hotel at 6 pm" she informed, she had full makeup on, and she seems flirty and who wouldn't flirt with Lee Minho right?

"Ok," he said

After his last meeting, he told his secretary to go and he went to the bar, drinking like it's the last day, he was drunk as hell when some lady came to him and they started kissing.

Jisungs POV

I was watching a TV when the doorbell rang, it's already 11 pm, Minho has a key so who'd came at this hour? He walked towards the door and opened it just to met with a drunk Minho and had an arm wrapped around his secretary, Jena. We brought minho to the couch and she left, I know how is she, she always tried to get closer to Minho even if I was there with him. I sighed, he never drinks alone then why now? I lifted Minho from the couch wrapping his arms around mine

The smell of alcohol making me sick, I brought him to our bedroom and laid him on the bed, I sighed, and looked at him, he was saying something in his sleep that I couldn't hear properly, I stopped for a moment when I saw some .... Hickeys on his neck...

I felt the same pain, why it's so hard to see when I want to see him happy? Looking at what you did to a man who was just yours, but now it seems like he is far away...

You can close your eyes to things you don't wanna see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't wanna feel. I'm crying, from that day I was crying every night, this is not the only day I'm crying, this is just different.

I pulled his coat and started unbuttoning his shirt, he was resisting but I couldn't let him sleep in this stinking dress, I pulled his shirt off when he turned me, and plopped me on the bed,. Hovering over me... I stopped breathing, he was so close to me after so long, he is still handsome and breathtaking,

"Why did you do it?" He asked I was speechless, what can I say, I know what he is talking about, I didn't say anything

"You said you loved me, then why did you sleep with him?" His voice is not straight, but listening to his voice I can say he is hurt, I felt tears on my face but this time it wasn't mine, it was his

"Am I not good? You told me i-i was the one who can make l-love to you, then why sungie?" I can't take it, I felt my heart tightening, how hurt he is, I felt shameful, I'm, I'm a cheater, I'm the worst person to hurt that man who loves you endlessly and still is with you. Tears falling from my eyes but I couldn't say anything, I was looking at his face

"D-did he touch you h-here?" He said, pointing at my chest, I didn't even know when he pulled my shirt up, "did he touch you like t-this?" He said tracing my tummy to my neck, I felt trembling "did he kissed you like this?" He said and he kissed me, I kissed back, he pulled it, I was into him, just listening to his every word to his every breath , to his every hurtful sobs, he first time talking to me, complaining about how can I cheat on him, I'm happy to hear him, for how many days you will keep this in your heart minho, let it all out

"How you felt, when he enters you?" I felt hurt in the lower part but I can't resist, this couldn't hurt me than minhos hurtful eyes,

"Did you felt good? Hh sungie? You were always telling me, I'm the one who can make you scream loud? Did he make you scream even louder, when you slept with him?" He said fastening his pace

His Evey words stabbing my heart, making me feel even more guilty, that I had no chance to love again, this pain in my heart was left with me

"Did you feel hypnotized by him? You always said to me Hannie, you feel hypnotized by me when I looked at you while making love" he said while making love, going deeper and deeper, I felt numb, my body is shaking, and I'm looking at him shamelessly ...

I closed my eyes, when I felt him biting my neck, he cried again, after that heating, pleasuring moment, he cried in the crook of my neck "why did you do it?" He asked me last

"I don't hate you, I'm just disappointed that you turned into everything you said you'd never"

This hurts like hell, I don't have answers to his questions,... There's no great sorrow than to recall in misery the time when we were happy....

"I'm going Minho, I'm going far from you, you will never be sad looking at me, you would never found me" I said

"Drowned in darkness confined in pain"