Unapologetically in Love

The Next Morning *TW: SEXUAL ASSAULT*

*TW: SEXUAL ASSAULT*

Hailee's POV

You woke up around 5 AM. Your body normally does this on its own because it has gotten into the routine of early morning workouts. The feeling of the soft sheets against your naked body reminds me of last night's activities. Rolling over to see Y/N still sound asleep, you can't help but take comfort in knowing she is sleeping peacefully.  Y/N stopping you during sex was weird and has left you feeling insecure, but after seeing the tears in her eyes you knew there was more to the story than just being bad at sex with a girl. You didn't want to push for more details last night as she has never pushed you to go beyond anything you were comfortable with but watching her sleep, half her naked body exposed, you can't help but want her. She is incredibly sexy on the outside but pair that up with her sweet and funny personality makes her irresistible. You slowly and carefully move closer to her and take your finger to move the hair out of her face and behind her ear. 

"Beautiful" you whisper still mesmerized by how she looks. You see her shift slightly. 

"are you staring at me" she mumbles without opening her eyes. 

"I can't help it. You are so damn beautiful." you whisper back moving closer to her. Y/N scoots closer to you nuzzling her head into your chest. You take your hand and massage your fingers through her hair. 

"I never want to leave this moment right here." You feel her smile against your chest as she says those words. 

"Me either." you kiss the top of her head. You take your other hand and gently trace over her arm that has now wrapped around you. 

Y/N peaks her head up a little to look at you. "I'm sorry about last night. I know that it was weird. I didn't mean to ruin your first time."

You do a soft giggle. "my first time. You didn't ruin it. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough to allow you to finish." 

Y/N reverts her eyes back down, now tracing her hand along your arm. She watches her finger move back and forth for a few moments before responding. 

"I never want to hear that you aren't good enough. Hailee, you will never not be good enough. To be honest, its because you are so amazing." Y/N says still avoiding eye contact. 

"Look we don't have to talk about this right now if you don't want to... I just want to fix whatever this is so that I can bring you the same pleasure that you bring me."

Y/N shifts her head up so that she is back making eye contact. Looking into her beautiful *eye color* eyes is something you could do forever and never get tired. 

"I've spent a lot of my life building up walls to protect me and to protect those close to me. My past is dark and it is better just buried away... but with you..." Y/N pauses as she finds it hard to continue to on. You place a gentle kiss on her forehead to comfort her. 

"you, your touch, your voice, it has taken every wall I built up for so long and tore them down. You make me feel safe and it caught me off guard last night because I've spent so much time shutting out my past that with those walls down, it all just came flooding back so quickly I couldn't stop it and then it all just felt wrong to continue because... it wouldn't have been you and I in this bed. I know that probably doesn't make sense but it's the only way I can find the words to describe it right now. " 

Hearing Y/N say these words brought back a familiar feeling within you from your own past. Then it clicks in your mind what has happened. Your heart sinks feeling sad for Y/N and what you are assuming she has been through. You've been there once before and you knew how hard it was for you to overcome.