Tommy one-shots (ON HOLD)

Alone?

I'm sat there staring at my screen replaying two different clips.. The one where Tubbo said he was replacing me, I know it was just a bit but it still hurt to hear. Then the clip when Wil said he was replacing me on his platomical LoH, I know he was joking and wouldn't leave me but it makes me feel like i've lost both of them. 

Ranboo is everything I wish I was. 

(A/N Look at this pog guy and just appreciate that he is a real person. Every day is Ranboo appreciation day.)

That familiar feeling of numbness is spreading through me. I walked over to my bed and let myself cry, I don't care how loud i'm being i'm in so much emotional pain and have been letting everything pile up, at this point my sobs are louder than my thoughts. 

I didn't even realise my mum had walked in and was kneeling beside me rubbing circles on my hand. 

"Want to talk about it?" 

"All I want to say is my depression is getting bad again.." 

"We have the extras in the bathroom vanity to hold you over until we can call the family doctor." 

"Thank you mum.." She sat me up a bit and pulled me into a hug that I fell asleep in, I needed this. 

-Time skip to 4 days later in the evening- 

I've completely ignored everyone.. I just need a break keeping up friendships takes alot out of me. They seem fine without me anyways.. Well except Wil he hasn't streamed in a bit but he hasn't tried to text me though. 

I got up and walked into the bathroom taking the medication and walking to the kitchen setting down the bottle. 

-Knock- knock-

I sighed and walked over to the door, opening it. 

"Hello gremlin child." 

Alright that a wrap guys!  :) 

I'm just kidding! I'm not that mean :))

"Wil-" I pulled him into a hug letting my head rest on his shoulder, it took everything in me not to cry. 

"-Why are you here?" I said a bit muffled as my face is on his shoulder. 

"Well your mom called me because she said you were feeling really sad and wanted to know if I could stop by and help cheer you up." I couldn't keep the tears in now, I once again started crying which Wilbur was caught off guard by but was quick to comfort me. 

"Hey hey.. What's up.. What's got you so upset."  

"I'm just scared I feel like i've lost you and Tubbo."

"You haven't lost us.. Actually in my case it's quite the contrary. I'm staying all weekend and we can call Tubbo he doesn't have to know about your worries but maybe it will help put your mind to rest."

"Yes please..Thank you for coming down this is really what I needed. Can we call Tubbo now?" 

"Yeah we can do whatever you'd like."  I pulled away from the hug and grabbed his hand pulling him into the house and to the steps, I paused when I saw my medication. 

"One second. I have to do something real quick." I walked over to the kitchen and took two tablets out setting them on the counter then getting a glass and filling it with water finally returning to the medication. I scooped them up and popped them in my mouth taking them with water.  

When I looked up I saw Wil staring down at with with a look of concern but I can see in his eyes that he feels guilty. 

For what? I don't know.

"Tommy. That's Zoloft.. Are you sure what we talked about is the only thing bothering you?"

"Yeah thats all, i've just been through shit. Dealt with depression for a long ass time and many other stuff. Once i'm comfortable and have fully moved passed it i'll tell you." 

"Take your time. Now how about that call?" I nodded and we went upstairs and into my room. I sat at my desk and clicked the call button. 

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"Hey?" 

"Hey Tubbo.." 

"OH Hi Tommy! Whats up you seem sad?"

"I'm here too!" Wil yelled.

"HEY WILBUR!!"

"Now Tommy what did you want?"

"I haven't lost you right..?"

"No? What do you mean 'lost you'?"

"Like we're still friends right?" 

"Of course! We've been friends for years!"

"Thank you.. I really needed to hear that." 

'I think i'll be okay..'

Ayup now forreal thats a wrap. 

how did you guys feel about this one? 

I'm proud of any lessons you've learned! 
Like if you've failed at something and you learned a way to get around it.