Chapter 32- Needs
Jake's POV
Am I using her? I know that is what it probably seems like, but is that really truly what I am doing? If I was I wouldn't keep going back to her, I also wouldn't want her so much. It seems like I can't get enough of her! I know I need her, but before all off this sex stuff started happening it was because she knew who I really was. I just wanted to her to be around so I could be myself. She brings out the best in me. Now though, I need her on a whole new level. Not only do I need to be around her, I need to be close to her touching her. Feeling that skin to skin contact. It's not your normal fire work, this is more like a huge ass bomb explosion! After I finish showering, I get dressed unsure if I should be upset she left me again.
What is happening? I already know I'm getting soft for her, but this is more. It has to be. She is different from everyone, and honestly I'm very mad at myself for not noticing her sooner. I wish I would've paid better attention in middle school, then maybe thing between us would be different. Maybe I'd be in Robbie's place... no I wouldn't want that. He is friendzoned, and apparently has some other issues going on with him as well. Maybe though if I paid just a little bit more attention to her back then, she wouldn't feel the way she does about me. I don't understand how I didn't remember her at all, or how I haven't seen her at all before. I've always had an eye for spotting girls, but she slipped through some how... it makes me wonder how.
Deciding that I wont dwell on it, even though I know I wont be able to fully push it out of my head, I try and get a group of guys together to go down to the field do play some baseball. I get ahold of a bunch of my friends and we all meet up at the field, I wish that the baseball field wasn't right next to all the animal housing. It always gives it a funny smell. Horse and cows on one side, and the reptile center on the other. Yes, we have reptile area. That' just how 'upper class' this damn school is. It drives me nuts. I wish I went to a normal school everyone in a while, but then again I'm happy to be here as well. I do have good friends, and coaches. Beside, my family is one of the big investers in this school, so of course I should go here.
After a couple innings we all take a break, and talk about just how school is going. Jason comes into the conversation sense he is the new coach for baseball, and I slowly take myself out of that conversation.
"Jake, is it true that Jason is here for one of the students?" Peter asks, I toss a by up into the air catching it without thinkng about it. I think about it for a minute. I don't know... it could be I guess. I thought he came here to go after Paige, but I don't think so anymore. He hasn't really mad any moves on her, and he practically told me I should go for it.
"I don't know... I think he has some kind of motive like that. I don't think he's after one student though... he is just trying to make sure I don't kill his reputation." I sigh, I could really careless if I pass his reputation or not. That's the last thing I need to worry about.
"Dude you've got too! This place needs a new legacy man, and second generation Linlcon sounds like a great canadite!" The guys agree giving me pats on the back, and talking about what I can do to surpass my brothers awesomeness. We get back to game, then and we also send Wyatt out to get us something to eat. We mess around waiting for him, and once he is back we all sit by the pitchers mound and munch on the cheeseballs, mini tacos, french fries, and other snacks we got. I glare at the piece of rubber where the pitcher stands, even though I not made at the rubber I'm mad at the pitcher. Robbie, has really been getting on my nerves. All of the drama with Paige is enough to tick me off, but having sex with my friends girl friend I'm not okay with at all. Even though I'm partly sure I've slept with girls who were in relationships. Wyatt really likes Carmen, and I don't want to tell him what I know. If Carmen is cheating on him he should know. Also Carmen isn't a good enough girlfriend for Wyatt if she is cheating one him!I look away from the mound unsure where my thoughts on the whole mess stand.
